Monday, January 31, 2011
Thursday, January 27, 2011
Yet another thing the never previously occurred to me...
The other side of my family is peppered with a wild variety characteristics.
Hm.
It just occurred to me that the reason I like instrumental music
the least of which not being jazz
(in it's many forms)
is due to my abiding love of words.
<while working on Enobarbus, did this coalesce)
Sunday, January 16, 2011
So, apparently,
Who knew?
Saturday, January 15, 2011
Friday, January 14, 2011
Saturday, January 08, 2011
"On integration, jazz and the arrest of Ella Fitzgerald and Dizzy Gillespie in Houston"
reposted from J.R. Gonzales' blog at chron.com
January 06, 2011
![]() Pete Vazquez : Post file Ella Fitzgerald, left, and her assistant Georgiana Henry at an HPD station. |
Vice squad officers said three of the five -- Dizzie Gillespie, Illinois Jacquet and Georgiana Henry -- were actually crooning to the bones when police walked into Ella Fitzgerald's dressing room back-stage at the Music Hall.Miss Fitzgerald and show producer Norman Granz were "just present" in the back-stage dressing room while the jazz show was going on in the Music Hall, the officers said.However, all were taken to the police station and charged. They posted $10 bonds.
Sgt. W.A. Scotton said saxophonist Jacquet had the dice in his hand as the troop of officers walked in. The troop confiscated the dice and $185 in cash. Then they agreed to wait until the first show was over before taking the performers to the police station.Mr. Jacquet, the saxophone man, was the most nonchalant of those arrested. He told reporters his name was Louis Armstrong.
![]() Pete Vazquez : Post file Fitzgerald and Houston Director of City Properties Johnny Goyen at Houston Police headquarters, Oct. 7, 1955. |
Wednesday, December 15, 2010
P.C.
Saturday, December 11, 2010
My sister's stolen fb status
"Sometimes I wish I didnt have feelings..
Sometimes I wish I could crawl in a hole to never see people again.
Sometimes I wish I had laser vision.
Sometimes I wish I were never born.
Sometimes I just cant understand others logic.
Sometimes people try to make me think I'm crazy.
Somtimes I hurt.
Sometimes I cry.
Sometimes I could kick my own ass.
Sometimes I could kick King Kong's ass....
SOMETIMES IS NOW!"
ahem:
dope.
"Violence may have sometimes cleared away obstructions
The Big E. A. .
The stuff I think about.
but couldn't come up with a clean way to connect them.
Perhaps the answer is the massive, distorting gravitational force of the Nexus...at the center of Everything.
(shrug)
meh.
May continue pondering later.
Tuesday, December 07, 2010
From ''Echo''
the big AE.
''In nuclear war all men are cremated equal.''
dexter gordon
Monday, December 06, 2010
"We, ignorant of ourselves,
Deny us for our good; so we find profit
By losing of our prayers."
shakes via A&C via menacrates
Sunday, December 05, 2010
"Tony"
unrelated - something in this room smells like fried checken and it's making me want fried chicken.
Friday, December 03, 2010
"...confesion of error
mkg
"For me God and Truth are convertible terms,
mkghandi
Wednesday, December 01, 2010
Ex Machina: Truth vs Fiction
''Nah, truth ended when they shot MLK. The American way died over Vietnam.''
''And justice?''
''Sh#t, man. There's no justice. There's just us.''
Tuesday, November 30, 2010
Human
It is not until JUST now,
while listening to Zo & Tiggalo's cover of ''Human'',
that I realized I LIVED this song.
At first, I thought it was just her verse,
but it's the whole song.
I am now deciding if I am required to now remove my deep, deep 20-year-old care for this s
nThat's a lot of g.
That's a lot of care.
deciding.
Friday, November 26, 2010
I went to sleep
I'm awake at 7.
Not because I need to be.
I just...woke up.
Somebody called me at 5 fortysomething.
It started then. Why?
I ask you
why?
Thursday, November 25, 2010
Holidays. Ugh.
or maybe it's due to the inherence of my hermitish tendencies,
OR that I'm going to get cranky that people is beatin up my tms for the month,
but I do seem to get in a ''way'' about this time every year.
Maybe I just need to get up. I'm beginning to think the guy at the natural food joint was on to something with his sun/vitamin d deficiency thing.
Bonus strange: night before last, I had a dream that I had that dream where you can't find your nipples. You know that dream, right?
Bonus bonus - using fb or tms to tell people to remember the tragedy of stolen land/indigenous people on T-day is the new trite. Gotta innovate, people. Plus, that's what COLUMBUS DAY is for.
Example: consistently refer to today as "Yanksgiving" or "Ganksgiving". See if anybody gets it.
T-day is better reserved for highlighting hypocrisy of having a day of over-indulgence in a country given to it year-round.
Discuss at the dinner table for maximum effect; bringing up environmental impact of additional burden to sewage system is NOT off-limits.
(I love how I always manage to cheer myself up by the end of these things)
Tuesday, November 23, 2010
Another item for the here-to-fore un-occurred file
(oldest/youngest)
(lightest/darkest)
(petite/tall & voluptuous)
(married with children/never married & no-kids)
(Me Phi Me / Zee Phi Bee)

But, the thought just coalesced in the everlasting ephemera of my brain-scape viscera,
that they seemed the most alike to me.
I think (myGwen) aspired to be like (the G.o.A.T. Barb). College educated, own career and such. Actually, she beat her to a grad degree. They share the same alma mater for both grad and undergrad (technically not; for all intents and purposes, they do).
They both even look remarkably like their mother, each getting a unique set
of physical traits from her...
in that way that you couldn't look at either one of them and not see Annie Muriel.
A remarkable and groundbreaking realization?
No.
But it just happened in my head.
And made me quite :-) .
So :-P .
;-) .
? nemow evol os I yhw rednow uoy dnA
Wednesday, November 17, 2010
Don't kill me.
Broken Rule#1: DO NOT RIDE AT NIGHT WITHOUT A HIGHLY VISIBLE TOP LAYER.
I consider strapping a light to the handlebars, but, since I travel with traffic, decide that the one facing the rear is really the one that matters (in other words, I got lazy)
So, happy that I've apparently missed the rain for the day, I head out and down Victory Blvd. A car comes up behind me and stays comfortably far behind, even though I try to give it room to pass. Hey, maybe it's cuzza the light! I breeze through some lights and get away from the traffic behind me.
When I get to Van Duzer & Victory, the light is green so I chug on through, except that there's a Jeep that seems intent on turning left and it is doing so despite my forward progress through the intersection. The driver at the last moment realizes that there is a solid object (me) between the Jeep and the intended direction as I brake hard (instead of swerving away like probably should have), thus I survive. I get out an indignant "@$$hole" before it starts to settle in that, while the driver was not quite properly allowing for deficiency of vehicle headlights, my dark blue pull-over was not-so helpful itself.
Bike Riding Realization of the Day: IF YOU ONLY HAVE ONE LIGHT, PUT IT ON THE FRONT.
So, still feeling a bit indignant but mostly heartened by the rollicking and aptly executed track on the Le Da Soul - 20 Years of De La Soul Mixtape, I turn onto Water St. from the ferry. Heading north, a Highlander cab performs a U-turn right in front of me. Now, I've realized that I'm not as visible as I could be, but the illegal moves cabs pull really, REALLY bug me. And this time you even cut me off to do it? I go to his window and get his attention, asking if he knows that he cut me off when he performed said illegal U-turn.
His reply: so what does that mean?
My reply: It means pay more attention to someone who doesn't have the protection of a vehicle, but as much right to the street. It means value my life more than a tip.
His reaction (to whatever it was I said): Laughter, dismissive swear, drives away.
This causes yours truly to sprint to cab at next light and have his first full-fledged, non-over-the-shoulder expletive filled freak/curse out explosion including informing the passenger that he should not tip this driver and, if he does, he's rewarding problematic behavior and is just as bad. Not done, your humble blogger then follows, hooting and hollering proclamations of the cab driver's fear of him all the way onto the West Side Highway which, at this point, the vigilant bicycle rider is not even sure he's allowed to be on.
Broken rule #2 - DO NOT RECIPROCATE FOOLISHNESS WITH THE FOOLISH. ASIDE FROM TAINTING YOUR AURA BLOCKING THE OPPORTUNITY TO TRULY ENCOURAGE CONSIDERATION AND UNDERSTANDING, IT PREVENTS ONE FROM COMING UP WITH FAR MORE DELIGHTFUL, DEVIOUS WAYS TO INFORM FOOLS OF THEIR FOOLISH STATE
So, I continue on, fairly well pissed and thinking about what I has shoulda had done and what I had shoulda had said and how I could have gotten him the ticket he deserved had a police officer been around. I get to my destination and hear a rather nicely written piece of theater/self-discovery. I see someone come in with a wet umbrella.
Uh-oh.
Finally making it outside, I see that my bicycle is rather moist, as is the ground and the atmosphere.
Broken rule #3 - DON'T RIDE WHEN IT IS OR HAS BEEN RAINING ON GIVEN DAY.
My belief that I'd missed the precipitation dashed, I suit up and mount my thoroughly damp saddle to ride from West 21st back down to the ferry. It's wet. Still drizzling. It's night.
Oh. Boy.
But, you know what?
I had a lil' talk with Jesus.
And, because of that rain, I rode more focused than I had all night before. I made it to the ferry, then made up the streets the hills didn't seem so hard and I walked the bike up to the front of the building just as the last track of the mix tape finished.
And it was scary and glorious and invigorating in that way that living life is.
And it didn't kill me.
...
(thnx4that)
Thursday, November 11, 2010
The other night
On the cusp of waking life, I realized that ain't possible,
and I woke up.
Wednesday, November 10, 2010
"I'd almost forgotten the excitement of not knowinging...
Jon Osterman
"you get to be a hero...
Adrian Veidt
Tuesday, November 09, 2010
Bunny Sigler
I am overwhelmed.
There is, in my universe, no funkier person to have ever lived.
I have to change music now, so that I can get something done,
instead of sit here and have church for the rest of this collection.
Praise God for
ears and
feet and
hands and
booty.
8-#!!!
Thursday, November 04, 2010
Yes, it is 3-near-fourish in the morning,
The Fall Funk (aka the Stank at the Back of My Throat) has hit, and I am determined to defeat it with nutrients and anti-oxidants.
And Thai noodles.
I finally found them by themselves.
I think they shall take the place of the ramen I'd like to find separately, but cannot.
There's probably something I should be doing right now.
: p
Monday, November 01, 2010
Symbol
Wow. That only took []x decades.
Thursday, October 28, 2010
Amazing.
Just now, while reading a script I'm mighty darn certain I'm going to make myself available to audition for, I read this (paraphrased):
Perhaps it is messy. Maybe it can just be that, and can be in it together!
Egad, children.
Egad.
Sunday, October 24, 2010
Coincidence of the evening
Serendipity?
Ok...
So, I started reading the authorized biographic graphic novel of Nelson Mandela. A section on his early life recounts him being confronted with being leader at school and whether he should report a fellow leader for breaking rules. A thought bubble summarizes the predicament, ''who will guard the guardians''.
Interesting to me since I had two copies of what is often called the greatest graphic novel of all time sitting on my trunk. It's theme, repeated in backgrounds throught the series is ''WHO WATCHES THE WATCHMEN''.
One wonders if that was on purpose...
Saturday, October 23, 2010
Theory #(who knows)
That people who are ''taken'' have been because they figured out whatever it is we're supposed to learn about life while we're here...
Thus why ol' folks so often seem cool with ''leaving''. It's because they've got it, know they do, and know why they have to move on to whatever is next.
But I wouldn't call that a revolutionary idea.
But I've also theorized that people who are ''taken early'' are people who figured it out early, so they got to leave early. Or maybe it's a talent thing. They were called up (sic) due to extraordinary ability; needed elsewhere and the rest of us aren't ready/haven't earned the right to know what they know....
(you think LeBron could fade that?)
And maybe,
maybe that's what happens to youth, children, babies.
Can you imagine that? A being, not even able to walk or having situated thought and action enough to be able to speak coming, by happenstance or probability, the thought simply, universally, compulsorily true that God looks down and says,
"yes, you got it. Come Home."
Though, maybe that means there are those who are taken that are so confused, clouded that, not only will they never arrive at it, they so interrupt the path of those around them that they must be removed...
The cosmic referree keeping watch over and keeping in balance advatntage and disadantage; removing thosel with too much to give and those who take too much.
Maybe, the end of the world is just when mankind finally progresses past man.
(shrug)
a baby miscarrying after being there for a weeks, not even a month, because she's already figured it ou.
Imagine that.
Friday, October 22, 2010
Just got pulled over
I translated as "out of state license plate at 5am".
I guess 3 unis getting out of an unmarked is ''necessary".
Heard what sounded like southern LA to me.
I love being used as "practise".
Monday, October 18, 2010
My current definition of "married couple"
Saturday, October 16, 2010
Since starting with this acting thing,
Wanna hear a secret?
It's not my dream. I've known this since the first time I heard it characterized as such. I guess it can be for others, but I can't see how it could be.
Have you ever seen a dream? They're huge. Acting? A dream?
It's too small.
SO. Since I figured out what it isn't, I began putting some thought into what it is.
I think I've stated here before that I once wanted to save Black people.
Eventually, thad grew into wanting to be a superhero when I grow up. I just wantBut, I don't think I thought of that in terms of being a dream.
Maybe it's because I thought of ''a dream'' as being something more tangible, active.
Or, maybe, I thought ''dream'' to be something more fantastic.
(shrug)
So, here we are at ''now''.
Hm.
And I think I may have figured out what my ''dream'' might be.
...
I want to be elemental,
a force of nature,
the literal and figurative embodiment of the penultimate singularity: Creation.
I want to be a sentient Act of God.
(inhale)
(exhale)
(inhale)
(exhale)
...
(BOOM)
ex to save everybody. That was only a few years ago, by the way.
Friday, October 15, 2010
At this moment,
and still being the one who doesn't just go ahead say it
(slash)
why won't I just go ahead and say it?
Wednesday, October 13, 2010
"And the of it truth is....
From Powers: Roleplay, Image Comics.
Hilarious to me since I am currently - and just got through thinking about - doing a class project.
(heh)
What I Think Theatre Should Be About
"
Truth. . . or the apparent lack thereof. Something that happens in the actual realm of reality wherein any good physicist realizes we actually have no real concept of the bounds of possiblity.
I think it should be about earth.
And Dirt.
And all the stuff Joni Jones said people only think Us is.
And the rest of the stuff in school.
And everything that isn't.
"
Saturday, October 09, 2010
Friday, October 08, 2010
So, this high-schooly/college-ish girl
And either it, her lapiz socked tootsie or BOTH
are kickin it rather corny.
I really world like to enjoy my kati roll.
But I'd also like to taste it without the added flavor.
Oh! It's back on!
So, carry on.
(Iss on)
Wednesday, October 06, 2010
Monday, October 04, 2010
Within the past hour,
I have wondered if acting should exist for me as a form of exercise; choose something else as a vocation.
To have all this passion, yet nothing I feel passionately about to want to do seems strange.
Wasted.
I wonder why I wasn't born in one of this places where I'd be too busy just trying to survive for any of this to matter.
Or, maybe, the challenge for me is to decide to go.
I really don't want to hear any more about my potential.
Not because of embarrassment or guilt;
it just doesn't help me use it.
I know my potential.
I know people glow when I pass them.
I know I am the walking endowment of the singularity called the Big Bang,
I know I contain the explosion that created the universe.
I am beginning to try to own what I can bring,
still wondering,
what to do with it,
(before it's too late?)
“Your task is not to seek for love,
--Jalal ad-Din Rumi
Saturday, October 02, 2010
I just found out
ew.
and delete.
Tuesday, September 28, 2010
Left wrist.
Perhaps from sleeping on it.
Not pain.
Hm.
Had first actor reaming in a long time in class today.
Just woke up feelng like I was in trouble, had done something wrong, was supposed to have done something.
Don't know if it's related.
I am determined to not be an asshole to get a point across in teaching acting/anything, that performing passion is not necessary to talk about and is often less constructive and wholly not respectful.
In the least...one must earn respect and TRUST before using emotional manipulation/stimulation.
Monday, September 27, 2010
Thursday, September 23, 2010
I just realized my helmet
it may be very material/consumptionist/earthly, but I still really want a motorbike.
I was asked today
As in, who in family.
You know what?
I don't exactly know.
Both.
The sense comes from mother's.
I think the urge toward loquacity/to perform from father's.
His are preachers.
Hers are comedians.
in my little bit of estimation, anyway.
Tuesday, September 21, 2010
Portrait of Tracy
Or may be it doesn't.
(shrug)
Monday, September 20, 2010
Wow.
6 years.
First first day of school-ish.
I shld prolly go before I'm late.
;-P
Sunday, September 19, 2010
Thursday, September 16, 2010
At some point,
It also not the best place to have a bad day on the bike.
Stop being scared, oh yeah of little selfbelief.
Sunday, September 12, 2010
Why are politicians paid?
Paid to serve themselves.
Shouldn't there by a heavily defined demarkation between politicians ans representatives?
"This body does not belong to us.
LIGHT BRIGADE
Wednesday, September 08, 2010
Monday, September 06, 2010
The Tempest is a comedy?
What?
I was all ready to aud for it. Then I watched it.
Caliban? I dunno...
Maybe it'll get interesting to me before Friday.
Sunday, September 05, 2010
Dream
Pseudomilitary,
Toughlove, whathaveyou.
Was working with kid with obvious deferred development.
Friday, September 03, 2010
Wednesday, September 01, 2010
(Ugh)
Despite my intent to go do some menial work to avoid it...
Which I haven't because I haven't gotten what I applied for and didn't take what I knew would be there (because flyers are USELESS).
I did also fully intend to do something creative with the camera - set up date with model even - but "thing" came up for her... So...
I've been in this room for 6 years. Gasp. Gasp and egad.
(Insert sigh)
I suppose I've come fully out of my vacation from theatre. There's a theory about approaching a role that I'd like to test...
Watched The Tempest last night. Not so certain I want to go in for it now. Maybe.
At times I wonder if I should go find some ambitious, Type A-types to tie myself too.
(See what I did there? Nice.)
(sigh)
This has been one of those posts.
(enD)
Tuesday, August 31, 2010
Thought while watching the Tempest on Netflix:
and NBA
and NASCAR
and Target
and Quiznos,
why isn't there a national for-profit league of theaters who produce their own pieces and have a season of going to each others houses putting up double bills or weekend two-fer one specials ending in a season playoff where audience members choose their favorite pieces? Once chosen, there could be a week long post-season festival of best-ofs and experimentals concluding with an all-star gala production featuring the most able people in the various capacities chosen from all of the league's member houses.
Or has that been done already?
Wednesday, August 25, 2010
Yessaday's checklist
check.
Get rekkanized by chile from weekend callback that went un-fortunately?
check.
Make strong choices and carry them out, have work referred to as "strong", get auditor to consider casting decision they didn't expect to?
check.
Follow 'locked woman-carrying-future-on-her-right-hip with bounteous "base of operations" demurely wrapped in full-length brown/yellow/orange print for half block just 'cuz they was looking all "Queen Walking with Princess, NYC c. 2010" and I SO dug what was I was seeing?
check.
Walk all the way from 46th to South Ferry with minimal stops like it wudn't nothin?
check.
Get home and sleep half-way normal-like?
check. (more/less)
Tuesday, August 24, 2010
Ass.
jenny = female
ergo...
jackass
and, I guess, jennyass?
yes. jennyass is the new jawn.
Sunday, August 22, 2010
Thursday, August 19, 2010
dream....escape!
I just realized that I had a today about having to escape a similar neighborhood. I was actually in people's houses, though. I'd parked my car (my maroon '99 Galant) in this place I was, apparently, not supposed to be. I was trying to work my way back to it without getting caught.
I keep having dreams about having to escape some place.
Tuesday, August 17, 2010
Good news/bad news
/
The urge to go driving tends to burn gasoline (+money) and conflict with my crunchy/miser/conservo-nerd image.
*see, when you try to shift and the transmission doesn't seem to want to go into the gear you've chosen despite the clutch being fully out, that's the synchros saying "er...engine speed and your current choice of gear are not as compatible as you seem to believe. Try again. Think 'higher'".
Monday, August 16, 2010
Thursday, August 12, 2010
Wednesday, August 11, 2010
Artist =
"one who expresses."
professional artist = "one loans their ability to express to those are not so able/inclined"
Tuesday, August 10, 2010
SEB, 4.5 yrs later, first day of school.
be strong. but never be too strong to be honest.
welcome to the world, Lil' Big Bruh.
be great.
love,
unKle
Sunday, August 08, 2010
Wednesday, August 04, 2010
Saturday, July 31, 2010
Friday, July 30, 2010
Thursday, July 29, 2010
Mike Tyson on Competing Dogma
"You know, people say, "My god is better than your god." But how do we prove whose god is better? And this is when it gets really interesting. This is how we prove whose god is better than whose: [by saying,] "I'm going to kill you, or you're going to kill me first." And that's real godly. That's real godly. Yeah. I bet you people think, I wonder who would win a fight with the Prophet Mohammad and Jesus? These are sick people. This is crazy, you know what I mean?"
Read more: http://sportsillustrated.cnn.com/2010/mma/boxing/07/28/tyson.interview/index.html?eref=sihp#ixzz0v3EbwDHO
Tuesday, July 27, 2010
today's wacky dream
suddenly, all boat staff (predominately female as it was) in underwear.
a skinny version of onE of my grad school mates pulled a cameo At the end.
(shrug)
Monday, July 26, 2010
Currently at the 10:20 showing...
...of a film.
At 10:35, I'm still waiting for the film to begin.
Previews should be burned alive.
Saturday, July 24, 2010
In conclusion
Got kinda fun towards end. Bike messengers showed love. I'm looking forward to going back.
Yes, it is me and I managed to say somethng positive.
No, I haven't been drinking.
Peace,
cwj
Friday, July 23, 2010
Tornado watch!
So, after my lackluster closeup event, we get to hang out in the trailers during the possible high winds coming.
A trailer. Exactly where one should not be in such a cliamctic event.
So...
Just finished my big scene. At some point remind me to figure out whether I'm thinking too hard or not enough.
Gonna chill out in the honeywagon until we do whatever it is we have to do next.
''Hurry up'' portion finished,
And now we wait.
J G-L goes by "Joe". I can dig that. We spoke, but I don't know how much we'll be interacting in the scene. He's actually dealing with his love interest while I'm talking to a crowd. AND we're shooting it that way.
Tricky. Guess that's why they wanted The Acting Monster.
Beware the hammy, overacting Beast.
THE JOB
So, I'm on the set of a "major" "motion" "picture" today, scene with the star.
I guess I'll try to do some liveblogging. When I'm not knowing my fingernails off, that is.
Or reading graphic novels.
Thursday, July 22, 2010
For the first time in my experience...
Either way - ew.
Other fun from today:
I have officially decided that I do NOT want to be that guy at the last-minute cattle-called casting that is complaining about having "talked his way" off of a paying shoot to come to this because "I thought I'd be in and out" who thinks he's making it better by saying, "but I know you guys have been here longer".
(yeah, some chick was like that at a casting I went to today. boo)
Saw the worst tranny job ever today. I really don't understand what makes these cats think that balloons hovering around one's outer hip looks real. Maybe it's not supposed to. Maybe that person had just stuffed some balloons into (his/her) pants. Hopefully. Most plastic surgery is of the devil.
Found a ramen place at 14th and 1st. Saw a dish for, like, $13. That must be POWERFUL good ramen.
I probably should have said something deep, personal and important, but that's what your candy @$$e$ get.
:-P
Or I guess that what I get since it's my blog.
I really used to know how to do this.
stupid facebook.









