Friday, December 08, 2017
Sunday, November 05, 2017
Thursday, November 02, 2017
Monday, October 30, 2017
Saturday, October 21, 2017
Tuesday, October 17, 2017
Tuesday, October 10, 2017
Dear Future not quite old but probably old people,
It might be hard to find love in Fall if you keep looking based on what you had in Spring.
Or what you that you had in Spring?
Or what you wish you had in Winter?
(new winter, not old winter)
anyway....humility....going back and asking for what you before may scratch at a part of your ego OTHER than the obvious.
Nevertheless, can you do it?
starting early is hard.
starting late is harder
starting over late is hardest.
Monday, October 02, 2017
Friday, September 22, 2017
Monday, September 18, 2017
Saturday, September 16, 2017
Friday, September 08, 2017
Sunday, September 03, 2017
Wednesday, August 30, 2017
You'll decide to go to the Post Office first...
And see a person that you've probably been speaking to politely for the past year...
And wonder how each of you know each other...
Before he starts to tell you the history of the town...
And his mother whose house stood where we are now; who lived to 117...
And asks if "you know Angela Davis"...
And shows you a 40someoddyearold image of their embrace...
And says that he's been asked by some guys like Dr. Dre to do a history of Compton...
What it was like before it was "Compton".
And cognitive dissonance...
And you think you hear a choking up...
And references his hat that you noticed before stamped "Buffalo Soldiers"...
And you see a desire to part..
And a wiped tear...
And a reluctant shake..made "Brotherly" by your impulse...
And a name given hesitantly...
"Just call me ___"
Saturday, August 19, 2017
Sunday, August 13, 2017
Saturday, July 29, 2017
Friday, July 28, 2017
Sunday, July 23, 2017
Thursday, July 13, 2017
I am currently making my second attempt to read the Qu'ran. It is not going well.
Yesterday I realized the sensitivity in my armpit is actually a significant swelling, presumably of the lymph nodes. I am also currently congested...strange for summer.
I have an ant bite on m right forearm (same side as swelling) that won't go away.
I'm sad that a kitten was killed here weeks ago and that it's mother disappeared without me getting to say goodbye.
I'm disappointed that the Superwoman I've known for a lifetime is slipping past her superiority. This not a feeling I feel justified in having, but it is there. If I'd been around more, maybe I could have encouraged her more before now....maybe we'd all be different.
I feel betrayed by a person I wanted to give a chance.
I feel I've lost the energy to argue, particularly if there is no logic.
Five years ago this February, Travon Martin was killed by someone with no right, duty or responsibility. Since, Black people have been being shown of just what consequence they are to the power structure of this country. It is amazing.....AMAZING....to witness the fear and vengeance ingrained in this working class males of European ancestry in the country. It is truly, truly amazing to see how deeply indoctrinated and socialized this country is.
Perhaps I would have been fine being young in the 50s-60s. As for now.....I regularly wonder where might be a good place to go to live out this existence.
Maybe my view is just too short. Maybe next year will look as different from this one as 08-12 looks from 12-(now).
For the first time ever a few weeks ago, I visited the Monumental Earthworks in Jackson Parish, LA. I felt something there. It feels disrespectful that a highway was built through and part of Mound A was destroyed to build it. I know I am not these people. Perhaps these people would have seen me as a threat. I wish those people were still here. I left finding it poetic if the indigenous brown people still in existence moved north to take the place of their distant cousins.
Again, I have no illusions about my inclusion in that.
To the best of my current knowledge, none of the above is hyperbole.
Wednesday, July 12, 2017
Sunday, July 09, 2017
Tuesday, June 27, 2017
While reading this and imaging what it would have been like were I in that professor's class and just how many epithets I could rattle off, it occurred to me that Black, female classmate of mine had been being called by an epithet as a nickname by classmates with no repercussions.
I think, at the time, I thought it was her father's name. That was something we did, although I don't think we started doing that until high school….
At any rate – there were never more than 5 Black kids in that class at that lab school where there was only one class per grade…
And I just realized that happened.
In the same school where, in 7th grade, the basketball coach, the PE coach (and maybe our grammar/history teacher) read Brer Rabbit in blackface.
At the private lab school….which I assume would have been considered progressive compared to the public schools.
Friday, June 23, 2017
Thursday, May 25, 2017
Tuesday, May 23, 2017
but it ain't happening.
Instead & in short:
taught college for an academic year,
and ONLY an academic year.
finally spent that long period of time at home,
free of credit card debt, but unsure about future plans,
still a bit alone.
currently off the wagon with sugar, beef and eating at all times of the night.
also got my first prosthetic tooth a couple weeks ago.
at this moment: thinking about whether live-performed machinma is theatre and how that could have been introduced into my syllabus.
actors performing 3-d rotoscoping live?
surely someone has already thought of this....
Thursday, May 18, 2017
Wednesday, May 17, 2017
Saturday, May 06, 2017
Wednesday, May 03, 2017
Friday, April 28, 2017
Thursday, April 27, 2017
Wednesday, April 26, 2017
Saturday, April 22, 2017
Friday, April 14, 2017
Tuesday, April 11, 2017
Sunday, April 09, 2017
Friday, April 07, 2017
Thursday, April 06, 2017
Thursday, March 30, 2017
Friday, March 24, 2017
Monday, March 20, 2017
Saturday, March 11, 2017
Sunday, March 05, 2017
Thursday, March 02, 2017
Tuesday, February 28, 2017
Thursday, February 23, 2017
Monday, February 20, 2017
Saturday, February 18, 2017
Friday, February 17, 2017
Sunday, February 12, 2017
Thursday, February 09, 2017
Wednesday, February 08, 2017
Monday, January 30, 2017
Friday, January 20, 2017
Monday, January 16, 2017
'We must speak from our own, personal experience and fears when we have these conversations…
The big-word, college/grad school/I-Wrote-A-Book conversation have their place, but that's not the type of conversation needed with "normal" folk…'
(culled from Tori's second talk on Girls/Boys)
Friday, January 13, 2017
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- Exquisite Corpse by Daedelus
- Eye docyor.
- "I don't just have an opinion,
- "No weapon ever brings peace." The Expanse
- W. Monroe
- break fast.
- Filed under " Things it never occurred to you to w...
- That strange sensation
- trust - r g e f. marsha ambrosious
- Yet to Find - Robert Glasper Experiment
- It's a strange moment when you realize the process...
- a small ode to swollen digits
- Just now, while cramming lines while listening to ...
- The Window - Steve Miller Band
- do the scary thing first, then be scared. lemony...
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- The avalanches - because im me
- I am currently having one of those moments w...
- the Lab. recently acquired bluetooth PA speak...
- Jersey City, NJ
- 7 and a half minutes of what doesn't suck about li...
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- That awkward moment when the kitty cat offers yo...
- "Religion was created to create a relationship wi...
- Ruin Everything by Mux Mool
- What happens when Sister asks what you want for di...
- "you are so full of love" ('even if you don't w...
- "I've never met anyone like you." "You are going...
- "Can I ask you a question?" "Sure." "I never ask...
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