Thursday, April 08, 2021

(sigh) II.

i need an ear.

an objective ear.

a silent, objective ear.

and i need a unsparing voice to fill it with.

and hours, days, weeks of time and stamina for them both

(the formula for stamina certainly includes a time variable, yes?)

i need a seductive, hypnotic, coercive, convincive, safe ear

that can pull out all of the truth that i will and won't say that keeps beating against what feels like my diaphragm with what feels like wooden gorge

so i can feel like the it's right
because it's all right

and not just the part my voice allows me to remember. 



Sunday, April 04, 2021

Dear Normal Human,

   Sometimes, I wish you coukd understand what it's look to seen as unfeeling because you can stand back and objectify often, but also feel like you feel EVERYTHING.

Bonus: also what it feels like to be functionally invisible and relentlessly conspicuous.

(somewhere some character in of the movies of Your Life is telling you to stop giving what they want and let them know they see you when They act like they don't 'MAMA I DID IT ALL BECAUSE OF YOU')

Wednesday, March 31, 2021

crisopa - que nos ataquen

Tuesday, March 30, 2021


Spotify just rewarded "watching"  a 30 sec video with Feel the Fire, Love Ballad and Slow Down. 

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