Berestez - Opprog

It is 2016 and FoMoCo has used a track from the original Das EFX album.

And it wasn't even "They Want EFX".



Interesting.

Dear internet,

When you want to be clear and intelligible, all those rules you didn't feel like learning about grammar and formal writing suddenly become:

important

and

useful.

I miss the days when I could come here and have a lot to say.

Or something to say.



Now I just feel too tired to say much of anything...or perhaps I mean care about anything.


(insert something smart and thoughtful here)



(mopedymopedymope)


(blah)

The Truth About Consumer Culture from Reddit

[–]TheGuyWhoSaid 67 points 3 days ago 

I used to deliver furniture. Sometimes we'd get to a customer's house with their order and they'd change their mind about the colour or something. They's ask us to get the other option out of the truck. Even after we assured them that we only had what we needed for the day in the truck, they'd always insist we look anyway. "Maybe the warehouse guys loaded it accidentally." "Nope. I loaded it myself." "Can you check anyway?" sigh, ok.



  THIS is what happens when people think they've learned how to "bargain" or "persuade" when they have really just been successfully annoying people into submission for a significant portion of their lives.



:-|

Gap Mangione - Diana in the Autumn Wind

Tarika Blue- Dreamflower

Lafayette Afro Rock Band - Hihache

Roy Ayers - Liquid Love

weldon irvine - deja vu

Weldon Irvine - Morning Sunrise

Dear Manager,


Please, learn to decipher between your "talent".


Thus, will you be able to stop calling me about jobs that I am not going to get to do.


:-/

When You Don’t Look Like Your Parents

Mr. Scruff ft. Niko - Come Alive

RuPaul on How Straight People Steal From Gay Culture and Why Educating the Youth Is a Waste of Time

by E. Alex Jung

The drag supermodel of the world on how straight people steal from gay culture, meeting David Bowie, and why educating the youth is a waste of time.

RuPaul was born November 17, which makes him a Scorpio — a detail he has said accounts for his observant and analytical nature during interviews. I could feel his gaze settle on me as he sat down on a gold couch at the London Hotel in New York, wearing rectangular black glasses and a suit made of thick brocade in a resplendent print of pink roses. This was not the light and effervescent RuPaul-in-drag the American public has come to know since the release of his single, "Supermodel (You Better Work)," in 1992, but rather workroom Ru: serious, sober, and slightly intimidating. During our conversation, RuPaul, 55, clapped back at critics who said RuPaul's Drag Race used transphobic language, dismissed Spike TV's Lip Sync Battle as a ripoff of his show, and explained why educating younger generations is a waste of everyone's time. Grab your reading glasses, because the library is open.

Congratulations on the 100th episode of RuPaul's Drag Race. With the eighth season, how do you keep things fresh?
We're always inspired by the queens. And because it's like a school, we get a new crop of kids every single year — that's how it stays fresh. This year especially, it's the children's Drag Race. These are the kids who grew up watching it, and their whole drag aesthetic comes from the show. So it's an interesting shift. And we knew this would come if we stayed on the air long enough — we'd see what we produced in the public. And they're beautiful! They're smart. We have to actually work harder to stay one step ahead of them.

Has that given you a chance to take a step back and reflect on what you've created on the show?
You know, I normally don't. I only even entertain those ideas when I'm talking to someone like you, from the press, and they ask me. I'm always looking forward. I do understand we've launched the careers of 100 queens, which is really the most important part of our job.

What are some of your favorite moments?
Because the kids are so courageous and their stories are so rich, they bring such a unique story every single time. I always think about Roxxxy's story when she revealed she was abandoned at a bus stop as a 4-year-old. It's usually their stories that surprise me of how resilient and strong they are.

One of the things I love about drag is that it's an art form about survival.
It is, because each of those kids were little boys, sometimes in small towns, who were alienated and ostracized. And even in the face of such adversity, they prevailed and shine today. So it's a story of strength. That's what the appeal is for the audience. Here are these people who have prevailed and succeeded against insurmountable odds. It's a great story for anyone who watches.


They often say that drag saved their lives.
Right. And I'll tell you why. Because you get to a point where if you're smart and you're sensitive, you see how this all works on this planet. It's like when Dorothy looks behind the curtain. Like, "Wait a minute. You're the wizard?" And you figure out the hoax. That this is all an illusion. There's only a few areas you can go. First, you get angry that you've been hoaxed and you get bitter. But then, take more steps beyond the bitterness and you realize, "Oh, I get it. Let's have fun with it. It's all a joke. You mean I don't have to stick with one look or one whatever? I can shape-shift? Great." That's when you can save lives because otherwise the mediocrity and the hypocrisy is so mundane, it's better to just not do it. I'm not going to say "end it all." But that's why it saves lives. Because for people who are highly sensitive and super-intelligent, it tickles the brain. It gives them something to live for. It's the irreverence. I was the same way when I was 15. I said, "Okay, I'm gonna do this life. But I'm gonna do it on my terms, and I'm never gonna join the Matrix." That's why it saves lives.

Would you say that drag saved your life?
It actually didn't save my life, it gave me a life. I don't think there is a life in the mundane 9-to-5 hypocrisy. That's not living. That's just part of the Matrix. And drag is punk rock, because it is not part of the Matrix. It is not following any rules of societal standards. Boy, girl, black, white, Catholic, Jew, Muslim. It's none of that. We shape-shift. We can do whatever we want.

Do you feel that drag can never be mainstream?
It will never be mainstream. It's the antithesis of mainstream. And listen, what you're witnessing with drag is the most mainstream it will get. But it will never be mainstream, because it is completely opposed to fitting in.

Throughout your career, have you ever felt like you are part of the mainstream?
No. You know, I've never been on Ellen or David Letterman or The Tonight Show, and there's a reason for that, which I don't want to go into, but there's a reason that I've never been thought of as someone who can go on there. Because it makes those hosts feel very, very uncomfortable, especially if we really talked. It would be the opposite of what they're used to. So am I part of the mainstream? No. People know my name, people know what I look like, but am I invited to the party? No, and there's a reason for it.

Would you want to be?
No. In fact, I made a pact with myself when I was 15 that if I was going to live this life, I'm only going to do it on my terms, and I'm only going to do it if I'm putting my middle finger up at society the whole time. So any time I've had yearnings to go, "Aw, gee, I wish I could be invited to the Emmys," I say, Ru, Ru, remember the pact you made. You never wanted to be a part of that bullshit. In fact, I'd rather have an enema than have an Emmy.

The show is clearly one of the best reality shows, so it's insane to me that you haven't been nominated.
It's not insane when you take the car apart and you really look at what the car is. You understand that it can't recognize it, because in doing so it would recognize all of the flaws in their doctrine, in their whole ideology. Drag doesn't conform. It's actually making fun of [conformity]. Now, the talk-show hosts … get it if I'm making fun of myself and if I'm a punch line for them, but not as a human being. They would have a transsexual on because a transsexual is saying, "This is who I really am. I'm real." I'm saying, "No, I'm not real. I'm actually everything and nothing at all."
I'd rather have an enema than have an Emmy.

That's very Buddhist.
I didn't come up with this shit. I studied. It is very Buddhist, and all roads lead to Zen and Buddhism. If you are a seeker and you want to know the answers, you're not the first person to go there. And you don't have to look that far for the answers. They're not encoded in this ancient scripture. It's actually right there in front of you. It's in that flower that I'm looking at right now or that tree over there or that mountain. It's all there.

What do you think of Lip Sync Battle and Jimmy Fallon?
Oh, I don't think of it. It's a poor ripoff of our show. Regular, straight pop culture has liberally lifted things from gay culture as long as I can remember. And that's fine, because guess what? We have so much more where that comes from. Take it! That's why [my new show] Gay for Play is such a fun thing, because we've taken the best of the gay sensibility and put it all in one place. And we're showing these bitches how it's really done. But it's funny how that works, even in gay culture. There's a certain "gay shame." Gay people will accept a straight pop star over a gay pop star, or they will accept a straight version of a gay thing, because there's still so much self-loathing, you know?

They talk so much about acceptance now today and it's like, yes, but trust me — I'm old and I know this shit — it's superficial. Because as soon as the lights go out, you'll see how advanced people's thinking is. This so-called "Will & Grace acceptance" era is just people fucking posing. Things haven't changed that much. You see it in politics right now — that's the fucking truth of people. And you know, people will have you think, "Oh, we're fashion. We're gay. That's my gay over there!" It's like, no. We're still a very, very, very primitive culture.

Gayness is still treated as an accessory.
Exactly. But if we can just cut out the self-loathing, we could get really far.

There's a sense on Drag Race that there's a way to win. With certain judges, there's a value of "fishiness" (a.k.a. looking like a real woman). Do you feel like that is counter to what drag is?
The criteria really isn't "fishiest." It's charisma, uniqueness, nerve, and talent. And if you got it, if you look at our iconic photo from the premiere, we have a wide variety of girls and, I don't know, are any of them fishy? Being fishy isn't like a home run to win. Because we've had every type of winner, and the iconic girls who didn't win who are still super-duper-stars, they're not necessarily fishy, I would say. They're a character.

Fishiness can be a part of it.
For some, it is. It was never for me. I always did what I thought was interesting. I always just did what caught my fantasy. Looking like a woman, that was never the criteria for me. It was always to do drag. And drag is not gender-specific. Drag is just drag. It's exaggeration.

It's about playing with gender.
Oh, it's poking fun at gender. It's mocking gender is what it's doing. But taking it seriously? No. Because that's what fishy alludes to. Fishiness alludes to the look and feel of "real." For most drag queens, that's not the criteria. Because the look and feel of real is boring.

Last week on Drag Race, you eliminated both queens, Laila McQueen and Dax Exclamationpoint. This has only happened one other time in Drag Race history. What was disappointing about their Gloria Gaynor, "I Will Survive," lip-sync battle?
Because Drag 101, the first song you learn to lip sync to is Gloria Gaynor's "I Will Survive." And every human alive knows the words to that song, just by default, because they play it so motherfucking much. And it was like, "What the fuck? You don't know the words to 'I Will Survive'? Then both you bitches need to go. I've heard these theories of, "Oh, they planned that." Bitch, we didn't plan that. Did you see the performance? It was absolutely awful.

You eliminated Naysha Lopez earlier this season. Why did you decide to bring her back this week?
Because she's fabulous. She had just left, and I was like, "You know what, you deserve another chance." I've seen all of the kids' audition tapes for many years. Thorgy had auditioned every single year. And finally, this time, her audition was like, "Okay, she's ready." But why did I bring [Naysha] back? Because I wanted to. Because the show's called RuPaul's Motherfucking Drag Race. (Laughs.)
Gay people will accept a straight pop star over a gay pop star, or they will accept a straight version of a gay thing, because there's still so much self-loathing.

Drag has always been about playing with language and taking it apart and blurring boundaries, whereas currently the discourse on the internet is about creating demarcations within language and saying you can, or cannot, say something. What do you think about that?
It's stupid. They're dumb, and it's stupid. If I said, "Boy, I really love corn dogs!" it doesn't mean I actually love a corn dog. Because love has nothing to do with corn dogs. But it's just language. It's a state of mind. You take for granted that my intention is really to express that I enjoy them a lot and I want to eat one right now. That's what it's meant to do. But if you have an agenda and you want to take my sentence apart, you could certainly say, "Oh, my God! You love a corn dog? What do you mean by that? Do you want to marry it? Do you want to put it inside of you?" It's like, "That's not what I meant and you actually know that's not what I meant and you're only using it because you have an agenda so that you could get attention for whatever reason you have."

How then would you interpret taking out "She-Mail" from the show due to allegations of transphobia?
I don't know. You know, I didn't do that. The network did that, and you'd have to ask them why they did it, but I had nothing to do with that.

Did you feel like that was not a battle to have?
Well, the intention behind that word is a portmanteau that was meant as a way to be fun and to enjoy language. I talked earlier about the sweet, sensitive souls who find this world, when they uncover life's cruel hoax. The first stage is anger. Then bitterness. The third stage is laughter and irreverence and understanding that, "Oh! I can have fun. Don't take it too seriously. Have fun with it." So twist a phrase, curl a word, paint on a mustache. We do not stand on ceremony, and we do not take words seriously. We do take feelings seriously and intention seriously, and the intention is not to be hateful at all. But if you are trigger-happy and you're looking for a reason to reinforce your own victimhood, your own perception of yourself as a victim, you'll look for anything that will reinforce that.

How do you view drag's relationship to the trans community?
I think it's a boring topic. I don't really want to talk about that because everybody wants to ask about that. It's so topical, but they're complete opposites. We mock identity. They take identity very seriously. So it's the complete opposite ends of the scale. To a layperson, it seems very similar, but it's really not.

Right. But I mean, it is complicated, too, because …
I don't think it's complicated. Some people take identity very seriously. I don't. I choose to laugh at identity and play with it. I'll wear a suit or I'll wear a sailor's outfit. I'll dress femme. I'll dress butch queen, which is the name of my new album, by the way. I'll do whatever. All of the experiences I've learned and every ascended master you've studied will say the exact same thing: Life is not to be taken seriously. Most people are dumb as fuck. If you look at their voting habits and their eating habits, you realize people are stupid. So we could talk about stupid people or we could just stay with smart people who know how to have fun and not even focus on what dumb people do. It's not worth it. I tell you this as someone who's a smart motherfucker: Don't waste your time fooling with dumb people or trying to figure them out or trying to educate them. It doesn't work. It's a lose-lose situation.

How do you feel drag's function has changed?
The function hasn't changed. It's been the same since the beginning of time when shamans, witch doctors, or court jesters were the drags. Which is to remind culture to not take itself seriously. To remind you that you are not your shirt or your religious affiliation. You are an extension of the power that created the whole universe. You are God in drag. You are dressed up in this outfit of a body, which is temporary. You are eternal. You are forever. You are unchanged. And this is a dream you're having. So don't get to attached to it. Make love. Love people. Be sweet. Have corn dogs. Dance. Live. Love. Fuck shit up. But it's all good. You can't fuck it up because you're eternal.

There's a discussion right now about how TV has become diversified because there are different channels, there are web shows, there are podcasts. Do you feel like there's more opportunity now than there was in the early '80s when you were coming up?
There are more opportunities because there are more avenues where you have a voice. But in saying that, everyone else has a voice too, and everyone else's voice is treated with the same levity as the next person's voice is. So there's a lot more opportunities, but the playing field is so, so crowded. You have to be very, very distinct to really get out there. And when you realize who the audience is and what their intellectual DNA is, it's almost like, Gee, do I want to be the most popular? Do I want to be someone who Betty and Joe Beer Can are not threatened by? Because they're threatened by everything.
Don't waste your time fooling with dumb people or trying to figure them out or trying to educate them. It doesn't work.

Do you think it's true that audiences have become more niche?
Yes, definitely, which is not necessarily a great thing. When I was in clubs in New York, I'd go out every night. I'd go to four to five, maybe six clubs a night, and at all of those clubs, there would be uptown, downtown, black, white, gay, straight, everybody was there. And it was so exciting. And there was no shame. It wasn't like this hostile tension because we were all mixed together. But as the '90s rolled in, people started branching off into their little niches, and I thought it was very indicative of what was going on in the rest of the world. And we're witnessing that in television right now. I think it's a cycle that humans go through.

What do you think changed?
This is my twisted little theory: that because more and more people became narcissistic and became self-analyzed or in therapy, their own personal issues became omnipotent, and they wanted the whole world to know, "My personal issues are important, dammit, and so I need to be around people who understand me." Rather than the other way around, and fixing yourself from the inside out, they wanted the outside to reflect who they are. I'm working on this theory as I'm saying it, but I think the answer is in there somewhere. It has to do with the Me Generation, the narcissistic generation needing to make their environment reflect who they think they are.

How important is history for drag in general? Do you feel like there's a generational gap with these young kids coming up who don't know the original references but they know what has been based on them?
Yes, drag traditionally has been a sampling machine. We have always taken little bits to piece together a bigger story. It's almost like an encrypted message. For young gay people before the 1990s, and forever, we had to speak in code. We had to speak so that we couldn't be found out. And a lot of that came in the form of references, pictures, one-liners, a twist of phrase. And that's the tradition of the young outsider — your tribe finds you once you send out these messages. In the "Supermodel" video we've got the Diana Ross urban legend of the Brewster-Douglass Projects with the Supremes, how they met. We've got Sunset Boulevard. Mahogany was in there where she's looking in the mirror and she puts the lipstick on the mirror. It's all in there.

It's a tradition, and will young people get it? They don't have to get it as much today because it's not like this gay underground railroad where if you're found out, you'll be run out of town. They don't need to have that secret language anymore. But on Drag Race, we still put it in there because it's our duty and our tradition to behave that way. To have little wink wink, nudge nudge references that people who do know will get it.

Do you think it's important for the younger generation to learn it?
I don't know. I don't really care about them. The truth is, they're on their own. They'll figure it out. There's nothing we can do to force them to say, "Look, this is important." Humans don't learn that way. I think about New York, and I had such a fucking great time there. Do I wish young people could experience that? Yes! Yes, I do. Am I going to work it out for them? No, bitch, you're fucking on your own. Work it out for yourself.

There have been lot of LGBT narratives recently: Carol, The Danish Girl. What did you think of them?
I loved Carol. I thought it was a beautiful film. I loved the story. The Danish Girl, I couldn't see past the wigs, which were terrible. I did love that one time where he gets dressed up and looks like David Bowie. He's in a suit that has these huge wide legs, cinched waist, and he's not in women's clothes, he's in a man's suit. It is gorgeous. It's worth watching the movie for just that one shot. Anybody in that David Bowie suit, oh my God, gorgeous.
I don't really care about [the younger generation]. The truth is, they're on their own. They'll figure it out.

David Bowie was a big influence on you. Did you ever get to meet him?
I did, yeah. I was at a dinner party and when I saw he was there, I had to excuse myself into the library of this swanky house. Actually, it's a house that David Geffen owns now, but it wasn't his then. I excused myself to breathe a little bit, you know? Thinking back, I guess he came in there specifically because he knew that I went in there. And he said "Hi" and shook my hand. I said, "Hi, great to see you." And we spoke for a little bit. Then I actually escaped the party and didn't sit down for dinner because I had to go downstairs and let out the screaming and crying that followed.

What does he mean for you?
I talk about the sweet, sensitive souls, the people who are my tribe, you know? And how hard it is to navigate your heart in this plane, in this linear, basic, mediocre, hypocritical world. To find those beacons of light in that darkness is such a gift. And he is that. He still is that. Through his music and his art, how he projected this image out there. And it was never cocky. Part of the rock creed is to wear black and cover up and smoke a cigarette and be exclusive. His wasn't that way. His was always open. That's why my generation of kids flocked to that. Because it was a continuation of the exploration of the '60s and '70s.

Is there anyone who interests you in pop culture right now?
The only person who interests me in pop culture right now is Judge Judy. That's it. Because of the realness — she has kept the story of mankind. There's a certain decorum and civility that keeps our society together, and it has crumbled so much in the past, really, 20 years. But when you watch her during that hour in the afternoon, she has remembered it and is saying, "No! We do it like this." And I love it! She remembers the rules of civility. Because if you've gotten to the point where you need to go to court to figure out what to do, then you've lost your right to be cocky. You need someone. You need a mediator. And she's that person.

You mentioned your upcoming game show, Gay for Play. Can you talk a little more about it?
It's a pop-culture trivia show, where contestants win over $5,000 in cash and prizes with a panel of celebrities who are there to help them answer the questions if they choose to listen to them. And it is hilarious, sexy, cheeky, irreverent. It's the gay aesthetic done by gay people. Through our show and social media, the gay vernacular has been adopted by mainstream pop culture. Every blog is now in the voice of gay culture. Sex and the City was a show that was a gay aesthetic done by straight women. That's what made it successful. And it starred New York City. So we decided to take our gay aesthetic and put it on a game show and do it the way it should be done. These other shows that rip off little bits of our show? Have at it. We've got plenty. You could try to come for us and try to do it. You could never do it the way we do it.

(flash!)

Oh, that glorious moment,

when you finally get tired of Adobe's crappy, buggy, security holey
shiteware

and delete it from your computer...


(sigh)


*bliss*

I asked my mother of she'd don't any athletics in school.

I just read the reply: yes, and drama club.

I don't know if she understands that helps me make done sense of myself in the world.

I knew that she and I are both creatives... It never occurred how directly so that is true.

It makes a little more sense today why I am the way I am... And when you're used to feeling different, that's important sense to have.

That moment when you're sitting across from a maybe high school/maybe underclassman college aged kid wearing black Sketchers (not the cool kind), grey socks, grey slacks with 1 inch cuffs sewn in, a striped golf polo, and a worn ivy league school cap reading the NY Times and wondering what he's listening to in those ear buds.

Louie.

One of the most beautiful things about Louie is his complete willingness
to let what most writers would have take an entire episode and do it all
in 3 minutes.

No unnecessary complication or emotionalizing.

Introduction.

Complication.

Conflict.

Resolution.

3 minutes.

Or less.

"The older you get, the more goodbyes you say."



          Mike Singletary

I am now pretty confident in listing my 4 favorite books in life here-to-fore.

Autobiography of Malcolm X
Autobiography of Mohandas Gandhi
The Clockwork Man
The Parable of the Talents

I am currently very upset that no one made me read PotT Ms. Butler returned to the earth so I could ask all the questions I have...

Experience makes you psychic.

"When you look at things through rose-colored glasses,

all the red flags just look like flags."



             

             (from BoJack Horseman, ep. 210)

Orb - LFC

(specifically the Pal Joey Remix, if you can find it)

End.

Colloquial hyperbole involving death, destruction ("slayed, killed, destroyed, murdered) or irreversible cessation that doesn't involve actual irreversible cessation is now trite...

Not expressly due to a world seemingly inundated with death

& violence (though, you know, there is that)...

But because it is exactly that: trite.

Overused.

"Played".

Tired.

Stale.

And particularly so in headlines in text media.

(some of which its purveyors actually contend is journalism)

I should be working on my taxes...

But I'm currently stuck on Buzzfeed Yellow.


Watching young persons be cute is nigh irresistible.



I need a dog.

Beady Belle - PartyPooper

I just turned the ceiling fan on.

The window was already open.

Two days ago we hit below 0F at night.

FAHRENHEIT.


(insert applicable hashtag here).

While trying to understand the significance of the discovery of gravity waves,


getting to see teachers teaching teachers teaching.

It is the duty of all to teach.

This requires learning.

The methods of either are varied and malleable.

Courage is defined by fear.

That dream where your aunt calls you, says she loves you


and the two of you sit on the phone for a the rest of the dream without
saying anything else.

Mr. White.

...in memoriam.

Choy Lin - "Fishing"

christine salem - "maloya" (and more)

:-#  !

"That's the thing about the present.

You don't appreciate it until it's the past."
 

"Now is the envy of all of the dead."


World of Tomorrow

The Beauty of Owning a Small Motorycycle

When you look up and realize that you've waited too late to take public transit...

When you go downstairs and your roommate has parked his car in front of yours and the lady that usually isn't parked next to you IS...

And you look to see if you can fit between them but can't...

(and find out that lady has a broken rear view mirror in the process)

Then you look behind her car and the next one over and see that there's no car in the third space down...

And you realize you can actually get out by going behind the cars to the open spot...

And while moving the items behind her car you notice that oil you haven't recycled is leaking...

And when you go to see if the cap is on all the way it comes off causing a puddle to spill out...

So you have to interrupt the shuffling to lay down ash to soak up the oil...

And you finally shimmy the bike through the space made and let it warm up while putting all of the stuff back behind that lady's car...

And you finally get going and notice the crater in the driveway the snow has caused...

And while gingerly going down that long hill you lock up the back wheel with barely any pressure on the pedal and realize you are at the mercy of the slush, gravity and Jesus' Daddy...

And later, pulling away from that light where you gave the gas just a hair too much goosing in the midst of all that slush still left in the street...

then...

THEN you will truly the understand the beauty of owning a small, competent motorcycle.

Dancing: a graceful rebellion against gravity


- Steve Tobolowsky

"Everybody gon' get off the path, but the point is to get back on -
forgive yourself and get back on."




Evander Holyfield

Using a Kleen Kanteen as a spittoon seems ironic.

And one day you will notice school buses and cabs are the same color.

And you will feel dumb.


(end of story)

One wonders if Tara Kyle realized she was talking to someone with a law
degree...

"after you lose a son, you're heart stops every time the phone rings."


Coach Carter

"...if you have money, life ends up being the same no matter where you go.


  However, if you don't have money, you learn to live your life according to where you are."



Balsa from Moribito

"You overacted a little. But In India, only overacting works."


from "Bhootnath Returns"

Do not be what someone else thinks you are....


.... unless you really value their opinion.

Two hours ago I put the hen in the oven and put some water in the pitcher to filter for the beans.


If only I'd remembered to complete step two of the previous,


I might be happily munching on some hen and beans right now.



: /

for further consideration later

...the urban can-do is in the mind,
   the rural can-do is in the body...

...in NY can-do is in the mind,
   down-home can-do is in the body...



(permutations further)

When you see that 20-something Euro woman dropping of the 50-something Afro woman and her teenage family member:


Uber.

The children next door are in the hallway.


They have been for the past hour.


They are playing.


They are alternately declaring themselves the "Bad Africa" or the "Nice Africa"*.



: |



Rain, rain, go away.

Come again after school comes back.



#mrgrumpy



*(the oldest girl is named "Africa")


;-p

There is no drenched quite like motorcycle drenched...

because motorcycle drenched drenches you in ways


(places)


it never occurred for you to be drenched before.

I just deposited a check for such a small amount the ATM couldn't recognize it.

When you're sitting in the terminal and someone starts playing "Careless Whisper" on the French horn.

Sent from my Windows Phone

"That's what peace is, right? Postponing the conflict until the thing you were fighting over doesn't matter."


from DRIVE by James S. A. Corey

We want people

to be perfect

because:

we

are

not.

"I will."

When one considers the definition of the verb,

The sentence seems far more active and affirmatively declarative than it
seems to generally be connoted.

"I will."


Perhaps it is due to the absence of an assumed object.


"I will it."




...hm.

eyes

I've been meaning to do a project like this.

Eyes, hands, feet.

maybe one day I'll get around to it.

If only I could read the page...

Dear Child Named "Purity",


Please return to your African mother before the rest of us get in trouble.

Signed,
Everybody Else in the Store    

"Everything's a f#cking pain in the ass. That's part of livin in New York."


Later, after much more picturesque, vulgar imagery and the phrase "grease my asshole",

(to the lady next to him)

"Sorry."


Dude on the bus complaining about life here in.....

The electricity

of reading a thing; and the sense of having an idea that might work for it.

beat.

Today, just now, I played a djembe in my home for the first time.


Not the place where I sleep, but my home. The place I grew up in.


I played. And heard my father walk in. And he sat down with my back to him,


and said nothing.


And I worked my way. And he watched me find a rhythm.


And sat and said nothing.


And I began to sweat, and I began to commune,


And he laid down and closed his eyes and said nothing.


And I removed the muffle and found all the notes of the drum and found myself able to make Lati Oja* sing,


And he lay with his feet up,
on a love seat at least as old as me,

and he closed his eyes and communed and said nothing


And I heard a foot patting, and it helped me in rhythm,
and I beat harder,
and patting,
and I thought it might be clapping,
and it became stomping,
and I thought it might be him
but my sister had come into the room.

And she began dancing the dances,

(and it may have seemed in jest,

even so - there is always some Truth in jest,

and feet dancing in spirit always step true)

And I played with right eye closed
to keep the collected sweat resting
precariously on that eyelash that
my hands were too involved to brush.

 
And we communed.


And she left.

And I got up and looked at him, peaceful.

And I walked upstairs,

And I began to type,

so I wouldn't forget..

the first time

he and I

had ever.


Communed.





(*Lati Oja is the drum)

go coogs.

The moment when, while stopped in Salem, VA,

you notice the Muslim woman playing with children next an RV..

And notice somebody praying in front of it, obscured from the view of the street.

Goings & Comings

Oh,

that glorious moment...

when,

after a Iifetime of stabbing attempts long ago left behind...

you get an inkling...

and realize!!


Realize:


that you finally figure out how to yo-yo.

hakon kornstad - "dwell time"

"Dust Kittens" - Eivind Aarset

"Sorrow" - Shadowed Doubt

"This is a war for the soul of Islam."


 - Bernie Sanders

Paris

Forgive me for any repetition...



But I have officially reached the point in my life where I don't know what to do. Had I been born ten or fifteen years later, I might still have some fight left.

As it stands, I simply have no idea what to suggest to address, nor reasons why people decide that wanton violence will achieve their aims.


Or maybe it's just too close right now.

My point of view on "terrorism" has been that if you get all these people willing to commit suicide in order to strike out at seemingly larger groups political and economic power, they would suddenly stop being so willing to strap on explosives with dead man's triggers...


And I imagine, if I take enough deep breaths, I would say the same about whoever is involved in these most recent attacks...

But there's something about it that seems too burdensome to ponder. Much like 9/11, I am avoiding news sources because I assume I am going to hear more about it.

And hear more about all of the ridiculous posturing that will take place in its name that really has nothing to do with it.


I will begin to think that the political prattling is all show, subterfuge and manipulation,

but I then start thinking that maybe the people responsible for the deceit actually believe it...and I can't tell which prospect is more dire.


But I have reached that point in my life where I realize why my parent's generation tended to not feel like dealing with it when I was younger,

because I just don't feel like dealing with it now.



Remind me to say something later about the lingering effects of global colonialism and the difference between Buddhist immolation and radical middle eastern self-detonation.



(sigh)

Puddles Pity Party - Viva La Vida (Coldplay cover)

Puddles the Sad Clown continues to bring clarity and depth to pop music.



I pray he never gets popular so I can keep liking him.

I feel like I shouldn't have laughed at this.

Nevertheless,

I did.

Work.

A couple weeks ago I turned down an audition because the character seemed....stereotypical,


and a job because it was below rate,



and I just emailed my manager that I'm not interested in doing a soft drink commercial and included why.



I should probably find a new job.




Is there something I can do where I get paid to be self-righteous?



Hm.




MSNBCFauxNews here I come.

excuse.

"I'm not doing (the Austin Half Marathon)...

I was going to do it, and then I went to a bunch of doctors who basically called me the medical equivalent of a f*cking idiot."

Zach Anner

:-)

"Please quit if you:

1. have no ideas
2. always rely on others
3. shirk responsibility
4. lack enthusiasm"

from a sign at Studio Ghibli

courtesy The Kingdom of Dreams and Madness

Let You Go

- River Tiber

:-/

Shigeto - Relentless Drag (Mike Slott Remix)

I'm watching the cartoon series adaptation of "Guardians of the Galaxy" and a background character just said "stakes is high".

Sometimes its fun to be old and notice stuff.

FAFSA

I was just browsing nyt.com and noticed a story on law school debt and wondered:

perhaps the answer to education expense is for students to seek experience  (internship/work)  instead of classes while universities become strictly research/archivist in nature.

Someone interested in a field could investigate information about careers, but their most direct education about them would be via experience. As they gained experience, the additional knowledge they would find out they need for a given position they could search for themselves at a college/university/library.

Universities cook of then concentrate on new research rather than mass education which is largely ineffective as vocational training.

Teachers in this environment would exist mostly to convey learning/research skills (rather than teaching how to pass tests).

Professors & research assistants would basically only be available to those already actively involved in a field or on a research track. The student would then be responsible only for the amount of the resources they used with a standard, perhaps monthly fee for gent real access to facilities (in this case mostly libraries).

Degrees are reserved strictly for those on research tracks.

For the practical/vocational student, the "diploma" is a robust and dynamic résumé.

The student body diversifies and continued education becomes the norm instead of a conference of unemployment.

Pure hypothesis, mind you.

"Our imagination makes small things enough to fulfill us and makes big things small so they are more like us."


From "Limit Cycle"

•Genius Party

I'm fairly certain I've never seen this many white people on a city bus.

Today on the train

I saw a young East Asian woman  in profile and wished I could have the image in silhouette.

Oh, that glorious moment..

when you realize -

20+ years later -

that Phife is saying:

"I say goodbye to El Segundo and push it along",

(instead of whatever logically garbled mess you thought it was)

.

"As humans we try to seek out praise...

...The really successful people seek out criticism."

Coach Tom Herman

fRAYeD

For some reason, the children next door keep sing-yelling,

"COME GET A SNOWBALL MADE OUT OF SOMETHING. YOU GET TO KEEP IT."


Everything the big one says, the little repeats.



it is not a delicious torture.

"It is a very rare person

who is taken for what he truly is."



"The Last Unicorn"

"All butterflies know

is songs and poetry and anything else they hear."


"The Last Unicorn"

repetition

I've stated a few times that I had an entry to make.

I usually don't end up making those entries....bad about that.

And I'm saying it again.

From about 2012 (Trayvon Martin),

to today (Eric, Michael, Sandra, Freddy, cops in BK, cop in Houston, RV
crew in VA, students in OR),

I probably have a great deal to pontificate on.

The only thing is...I've sort of lost the will.

I've somehow missed my passing out of the the warrior phase to the
protector, nester phase.

The only problem is that I've no nest, nothing to protect,

not at hand, anyway.

I think I understand now how my mother didn't have the same reaction to
injustice, "radical" point of view I might have when younger. You get to
an age and those hormones shift gears...you get to where you're just
trying to keep what you have safe.

So, I guess, there's a problem...or conflict...when you don't have
anything to protect, nothing built-up, saved...

And all the past warnings about "do it now while you still have time"
begin to become clearer and clearer as you vision becomes the opposite.

( :-P )

So, as I said, there seems like there's a lot that I haven't said
anything about, that I probably should.

Maybe I still have time to get around to it.



p.s.:

everything that I have ever not been able to understand should be
translated into robots.

Postmodern Orchestra ft. Kate Davis - "Bass"

 

... I finally understand this song.

Thinking About You by Giraffage

I am thinking this will become my new wake-up ringer...

"Science is the philosophy of discovery. Intelligent design is the
philosophy of ignorance."


N. DeGrasse-Tyson

I was, in fact, just passed by a man in a banana hammock and a sleeveless running shirt on Lex between 81st & 82nd.

Welcome to NYC.

So.

There is apparently a porn star who took the name "Aaliyah Love".

That bothers me.

IMMENSELY.

Perhaps I'm wrong and she was named Aaliyah at birth.

Still bothers me.

(sigh)

I am currently watching Dave Chapelle's Block Party and feeling a way I absolutely never thought I would:

nostalgic for the mid-00s.

I realized later that I saw people waiting for the bus to this show and am pretty sure I got an email about a possible show...but I diametrically opposed to doing things in large groups...and kind of a chicken about asking questions.

So no live taping of the block party for me.

I probably couldn't have remained standing for that long anyway.

Well, I couldn't do it NOW. Maybe then.

De La @ Summerstage was probably the last time I was really engaged at a concert.

Ok. That may be wrong, too.

:-P

"Today has been cancelled."

From a tshirt on a man on the train.

I am very close to going next door and offering the toddler singing the
same song repeatedly and repeatedly off-key a sedative.


this is why I hate musicals.

"But otherwise"

"But however"

"(most sentences starting with the 'but')"



These are all things I wish would disappear from English writing.

Hi, Gwen.

Happy Birthday.

Bighead.


:-P

:-*

"If a mule die buy another one...

"Kill a nigger, hire another one."

From "The Life of Riley"

(obsession)

In 2013, Netflix became the death of me. Quite literally, I hurt myself
binge watching...spent a few too many hours resting on my elbow in
bed...to say nothing of the time I fell asleep in that position for 6-7
hours.

I have now purchased a Roku.


I feel a familiar feeling coming over me....

I just bit into a slice of tomato,

and it was sweet and wet like watermelon.



I want tomato to be like that from now on...


...unless I'm just really hot.