I'm not ok.
This is not new. I haven't said it here. I realized i wasn't ok om sept of 23.
I have recently begun a process of, what I guess, is me trying yo be ok.
This involved me telling the truth and inviting certain ppl to inquire about truths they have wanted from me.
Seemed like a good ideaNow not so much.
Or msybe hsrd work is hard work.
I told these things to someone last night.
I woke up an hour-ish ago not feeling great...sore/crampy in some places...not of a renewed spirit.
I think I may saying some big goodbyes.
This includes The One that I never have...or maybe felt I hot the opportunity to.
To say goodbye with/from the heart...
To spend weeks trying to decide/figure what to say...
(it probably isn't helpful to start thinking of MJ's "___'s Out of My Life" here)
{Or maybe it is perfect..}
or maybe i just need to get up and take a shower.
