Retired general warns the military could lead a coup after the 2024 election

I thought you might want to see this story from NPR .

Retired general warns the military could lead a coup after the 2024 election 

https://www.npr.org/2021/12/31/1068930675/us-election-coup-january-6-military-constitution

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"Complicate ya" - Otis McDonald

the trap of the other.

https://nymag.com/intelligencer/2021/11/rittenhouse-jury-verdict-self-defense-legal-analysis.html 

"..what is grief if not love persevering?"

The Vision - Wandavision ep 8

"The act of telling a story changes the tale."

The Body Keeps the Score - Bessel Van Der Kolk

Someone, please, cut this dog's nails...

...so I can cuddle her.

She is eager,

but she is sharp.

Neil Young - Only Love Can Break Your Heart

https://youtu.be/364qY0Oz-xs

A film centered on or near to an Afro father and euro son.

(Figuratively, etc)

"your hair looks like a merkin from a giant"

phrasing.

I think I'm going to start a blog thet consists of just phrases I think are excellent ir excellently crafted.

First up: "irregular pubic borders"

(MAPLEWORTH MURDERS SEASON 1 EP 9)

1992 NYC Police Riot

As long as I lived there, I never heard about this.

 

One wonders how many of them were from SI.

 

https://nymag.com/intelligencer/2021/10/the-forgotten-city-hall-riot.html?utm_source=pocket-newtab

Lusine - Eyes Give In

Moon Boots - "Fortune Teller" feat. Kona

Beardyman - Mountain Side

 

Elusive - Safety Pin

Click here to listen to this on Youtube music.

as soon as I find another option, I"ll update post.

:P

"your reaction will lift you clear out of the region of such material matters as appetite."

Marilla - Anne with an E

Michaela Coel: 73rd Emmys

"Talent is a pursued interest.

In other words, anything you're willing to practice, you can do."

- Bob Ross

Rituals of Mine - To show you violence

https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=NXmyq7QbOnY&feature=youtu.be

Sweet Tooth dream

 I've been watching the series on netflix, and reading the comic series. I was reading it just before going to sleep, so I guess that had some influence on the dream.

 There's not much detail - I was in a that looked like the larger half of a sweet in the quadrangle at the University of Houston. I was there with three other people, and we appeared to be doing audio work or audio engineering. One person was, I guess, our boss. Her father showed up, who seem to want to take over or boss us around what were you doing. That didn't sit well with the other two people, and they seem to know that this was going to happen when he got there. When he got there and started doing just that, I said 'no, I'm leaving'. This upset the boss personal, and my response was to say 'okay if you want me to stay I'll stay'. That's where dream ended.

  The young boss lady appeared to be the character Bear from Sweet Tooth. 

  I've got no ideas as to potential meaning.  I did recently stay with someone who was acting in a supervisory position, and their father passed through one weekend. However, that doesn't really feel connected.

 

 

 

New Mexico, You're Next

 ...as soon as I figure out how we can get around Texas.

Native Tribes Face Funding Cuts Over The Treatment Of Descendants Of Former Slaves

Listen to: Native Tribes Face Funding Cuts Over The Treatment Of Descendants Of Former Slaves - https://one.npr.org/i/1031193110:1031193111

--
Peace:
cW

James Blake - Buzzard and Kestre

A new way to solve quadratic equations

 https://www.poshenloh.com/quadratic/

 

 

Freddie Scott "(You) Got What I Need"

Teen Daze - Wandering Through Kunsthal (Official Audio)

Radiolab: The Vanishing of Harry Pace: Episode 1

Melinda Ligeti · How Could I Ask For More

Melinda Ligeti · How Could I Ask For More - Melinda Ligeti

unwilling archivist

 I would really like to not..

Though I completely understand why I am going to, and can very calmly and objectively talk about that fact that I and my peers have reached that point where we are going to,

assuming our continued presence,

but I really, really would like to stop getting 

more

new

funeral programs.

 

"You think I'd let you starve to death?

 

 When I cut off my own arm to feed you, 

then you will know you're my child."

mama.

The Boy Who Harnessed the Wind

Even Though - Giraffage feat. Xxyyxx

 

Radiolab: Breath feat. the greatest freestyle of all time

https://www.stitcher.com/episode/84659856 

bullitnuts - savoir faire

Electric Guest - Bait (Shlohmo remix

 

Monsoonsiren - Maso (Prod. Laplace)

 

Rival Consoles - Recovery (Vessels Remix)

"People look at us and see the poor and the mad, but they're looking at us through the bars of their cages.

There's a palace in your head, boy. Learn to live in it always. "

Grant Morrison - THE INVISIBLES

dream

Dreamt my baby aunt G was alaive and young and had braids and we cuddled as we compared/competed over hair length and she showed pics she'd taken of my sister inngold braids and I said "everytime I see her I see Regina King" -

and a maroon 57 Chevy sped in and wheel-spun side-ways over a column on it's side to parallel park -

and checking G's artwork thst was looking on the wall to see if it's ok and " is it cool ? ", and me " this is worth hundred$ to a thou$and " and scoffing laughter -

and following them out and " respect a _l_ck woman's work " and gun pulled and stop -

and - 

and -

leave.

everyone leave.

(sigh)

 i am just putting this here to remind me that I heard someone say "general anxiety" today and am wondering if I qualify.

currently trying to fend off another tension headache (bad morning posture)

haven't been able to turn of various perspectives going on in my head long enough to figure out if giving someone an answer on their time to a question I didn't even realize that I'd been asked was the best decision. 

(headache increasing)

 

i have reached that part of the future where I'm tired of the past rather than wishing for it.

 

tired. tired. tired.

 

 

do not, under any circumstances, fall for sugar and salt and fat.

downtown tyler tx

of few times I have been through Tyler, TX and what I heard of it, I'd never quite expected to see this type of art there.

although I imagine it is intended somehow as a response to the former activities of the former train/cotton deport to which these are adjacent.

click for larger. worth it.

 

 

Listen to: A Utopia For Black Capitalism

Listen to: A Utopia For Black Capitalism - https://one.npr.org/i/989108031:989360308 

Some short time ago, Derrick Chauvin was found guilty on 3 counts for the murder of George Floyd.

 

Though noone has, I know that there is someone somewhere in the world who would ask if this makes me happy.

 

I am not George Floyd's family.

 

I am not one of his friends that was left behind by his death.

 

I didn't know him personally.

 

This verdict does not change the factuality of his death. 

 

I cannot take joy in the circumstance of death.

 

I am not in the place to be able to take joy in conviction of the enactor of George Floyd's death - that is for those felt the shock of his loss, who feel the pain of his absence, those to whom he belonged and belongs.

I...

I will be glad for something that will take decades to see...actual change in this society from one based in actual human dignity rather than human material value.

I am...glad...

..that the people of Minneapolis and Houston and (wherever) were not given reason to protest their pain tonight.

art in the time of dissonance

https://walkerart.org/magazine/whitewalling-protest-art-race-aruna-d-souza

Louis Futon - Shoulda Known (Ganz Remix)

Shlomo - The End

Elusive - Light Beams

Mux Mool - SFW Porn

above - blessed

Cartilage hydrogel

https://newatlas.com/medical/hyaluronic-acid-hydrogel-reinforce-regrow-cartilage/?itm_source=ocelot&itm_medium=recirculation&itm_campaign=ocelot_e079a01&itm_content=recommendation_2

(sigh) II.

i need an ear.

an objective ear.

a silent, objective ear.

and i need a unsparing voice to fill it with.

and hours, days, weeks of time and stamina for them both

(the formula for stamina certainly includes a time variable, yes?)

i need a seductive, hypnotic, coercive, convincive, safe ear

that can pull out all of the truth that i will and won't say that keeps beating against what feels like my diaphragm with what feels like wooden gorge

so i can feel like the it's right

because it's all right

and not just the part my voice allows me to remember. 

(sigh)

n/m

Dear Normal Human,

   Sometimes, I wish you coukd understand what it's look to seen as unfeeling because you can stand back and objectify often, but also feel like you feel EVERYTHING.

Bonus: also what it feels like to be functionally invisible and relentlessly conspicuous.

(somewhere some character in of the movies of Your Life is telling you to stop giving what they want and let them know they see you when They act like they don't 'MAMA I DID IT ALL BECAUSE OF YOU')

crisopa - que nos ataquen

compensation

Spotify just rewarded "watching"  a 30 sec video with Feel the Fire, Love Ballad and Slow Down. 

Psychology of Music

https://preview.redd.it/ww3vra5u6to61.jpg?width=640&crop=smart&auto=webp&s=e9a42be7f9c69cd4e0f536b85219bebf6d0810cd 

race is a lie.

 dismantling that lie does not mean that we un-become ourselves.

escribor

It just occurred to me, after listening to Glenn Washington and realizing that he just told somebody else's story -

like it was his own -

that writing one's own life...

can be a way of saying things that need to be said,

but feeling like you didn't have to do the

scary

embarrassing

dangerous

*feeling*

thing 

of saying those things

oneself. 

Monsoonsiren - Maso (Prod. Laplace)

 

(apologies for station tag at beginning)

Devonwho - Strangebrew (DJAO Remix)

XXYYXX - Pay Attention

vyvyd - Celeste

Sango - Trust Me

"How steely is your resolve...?

Finely tempered. "

excellent repartee in INFINITY WAR. 

Shlohmo - Blankets

"Children Heal Quickly"

I do not. 

Shigeto - Olivia

Legends Diner - Denton, TX

 

story on the tabloid that is Chron.com

 I am sitting here thinking about how often I ask people "did you like" rather than "what did you think" or "how was it".

Those are all different things,

broadly or subtlely..

or admittance notwithstanding.

If I am a person that asks one instead of the other,

when did I become that person,

or am I what I would have been regardless?

Was I always this way, asking that question?

 

(just now, when typing that last sentence, I typed "also" instead of always, and left it that way and didn't realize what I'd done until I looked back up at it. More, more mistakes like that, that I don't realize seem to happen.)

 

 i feel like I should type leave more here. but nothing quite feels right.

(write)

(pun)

<flop>

random: do dogs really understand each other more than they do humans, or the humans with which they've been raised, or who/whatever they have socialized to? Is there such a thing as "dog language", or is dog communication simply determined by the individual animal?

insert shrug.

 

 

sitter

A skit on Portlandia about a grown adult getting a babysitter caused me to wonder about the actual presence of such.

I assumed I'd see something about paid companions (no quotes) as one might see in Japan.

Instead I found this: https://littlebabyboo.wixsite.com/abdl 

Not that I had never heard of such, but it certainly wasn't what I had in mind.

The Starmaker

I just walked through the family room and the episode of The Love Boat featuring the Pointer Sisters was playing.

I think I'm going to find a way to watch the whole thing, then come back here and have a thought on it.

Right now, there's something in my head about how something used to look so different compared to the moving pictures that came 40 years before it looks so different 40 years after it.

The Pointer Sisters, if you aren't aware, are/were/futuretense awesome.

John Looke - Lost in the North

SVNSET WAVES · John Looke - Lost In The North

 

 

 

I like broken, imperfect things

maybe because i am imperfect

maybe because i dont believe i am worthy

maybe because the only way i can regulate my impatience for others' imperfection is if i view them primarily as "imperfect"

maybe i only want to be around those that i think need my help

maybe i only want to be around others that elevate me

maybe i just think humility is beautiful.

maybe i love you because you are not perfect

maybe i dont know how to deal with others seeing me imperfect

maybe i have just given * because i used to think you were perfect

maybe i -

maybe...

maybe. 

 

 

 

 

 

 

(* "up"? "in"? I can't remember what or whether something was supposed to go here -ed. 7/30/21)

cages

as cool as it is to be able to see Hawks and other birds but particularly the big ones up close and clearly, for closer than with you because I'll be predatory birds around we no longer have safe with it places to be able to hunt and live and do what they do. I used to see them off in the distance and I wanted. now I can, but like I said and this isn't I'm a big statement about the environment statement with the cases where I live.

 

 

 

(this was an attempt to upload a post via email entered by voice-to-text...the result is a bit indecipherable..but also a bit Gertrude Stein so I'll just claim 'inspiration" and leave as it is for now - Ed. 7/30/21)

Salva - Obsession (feat. B Bravo)

 

 

( this link goes to the song's soundcloud page with a link to purchase which contains an image that, though I find lovely it and tasteful, is technically NSFW )

Dryswch · Com Truise

htt

James Blake - Tep And The Logic

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wNWTxOqKqBE

Mark Sheppard - Morning Commute

The Road Up North - Timelaps

SVNSET WAVES · The Road Up North - Timelaps

 

 

 

 

Shigeto - Ann Arbor Part 3 & 4

Maxwell- Cold

#silence

"Rest now. You will leave. Take your ways with you."

 

 

 

(from, I believe, an episode of Star Trek: Picard...or Discovery....or Something - Ed. 7/30/21)

Fwd:

I miss the regular daytime quiet that would occur on Sundays when my (housemates) would both be at church.

I miss the regular shift in atmosphere on Sundays when a significant portion of the population would go to church, and the rest of the population felt some degree of guy about not going to church and, thus, would alter their consciousness/behavior un/consciously.

"Sunday slowdown"..

The communality of the day. Communal restfulness.

(days blend together so much)

I miss church, even though I don't go.

I recognize the need for church... See what happens when masses have no where to place their religious energy...zealotry.

Church needs skeptics.

But skeptics need church, too.

lineality

earlier:

while putting something in thr oven, imagining (mother) telling great grandchildren to call her "Bibi"

justnow:

while learning basic Swahili, find out that "bibj" tranalates to "grandmother" 

The Truth

 or

A Psalm for the Mis-led.

 

Love is not responsibility. Love is love. Take responsibility for your actions. Take responsibility for the care of you children. Love them because they need it to grow. So do you.

 

Deceit does not cultivate love. Any lie sown, even for the sake of a loved one, must be undone. Otherwise it will become a cancer. Lying for a loved one is not loving them. It is creating a false pretense. It will come to bear. All lies do. Lie hinders growth of the individual and of the relationship. The foundation of such is worse than weak...it is false. A weak foundation can be made strong. A false foundation cannot be made into anything - there is nothing there to build on, to make strong.

Don't hide your weakness from your children. Weakness is not a sin. They need to see you persevere so they know how. 

 

Be honest about your shortcomings. Be self-forgiving. Be long-suffering of other's shortcomings. Be encouraging of their self-forgiveness. This is how to teach forgiveness to them. This is how to teach love. This is how to love.

Love must accompany chastisement. There is no "I love you, but..". There can be "I love you and". Teach your children responsibility for their actions. Do no take out your embarrassment on them. They are not a failure. You are not a failure. You will make mistakes. They will make mistakes. A mistake is a tool for learning.

 

No healing is possible without the desire to heal. 

Do not run from pain. Do not run from discomfort. If you are unwilling to feel pain, you cannot feel love. One must be receptive....be willing to accept feeling, whatever it is. 

If you cannot feel pain, you cannot feel love....you cannot feel.

Emotion is the realm of the spirit. The "spirit" is the emotional self. Spirituality is dealing with the emotional self. Religion is a set of rules, ideas, philosophy. We all have emotion, we do not all share religion. Tend to the care of your spirit. Be attentive to the spirit of those you love. Be open to ways of tending to the care of all of your spirits.

 

Document your pain; let it pass. Remember what caused you pain as a child. There will come a time when you need it to relate to new children. This way you can heal generationally.  

Document you joy; let it pass. Remember what brought you joy as a child....give it to children. They need it to grow.

Allow your children to stumble. Allow them to see you stumble. Help them when they stumble, so they see that it is possible to get back up. Once they see they can get back up, let them. Stay close in case they need a reminder. Use them as a reminder that you can get back up. This way we can heal generationally.

Lead by example, not by expectations - lead TO and example, if you cannot BE an example. Let your children see your willingness to learn from someone else. This is not weakness. Humility is not weakness. What is it to say, "that child is not what I raised them to be", if you were not what you raised them to be, or you did not give them such an example? Give them the best you can. They will be what they will be.

Do not have children you are not willing to let go. The greatness of the sacrifice in having a child is not the time and effort and material...it is in knowing they will one day go away. You are growing, shaping, nurturing this entity for the sake of it going away. The child is like a work of art, it contains so much of you, your sweat, your blood. Yet, for it to be what it is intended to be, you have to set it out for the world and let it be whatever it is going to be.

Forgive those who have hurt you. Forgive them so that you can love. Forgive them so that you can truly learn from your experiences...understand why they hurt you, that they hurt you....to keep you from passing on that hurt.

Feel you heartbeat. Feel your ribcage expand. Allow you torso to move as much as it needs to. Your diapragm has a job, do not put yourself in its way. Allow your body to lengthen to make space for your breath. Allow the tension in your hands to melt into the air. 

Allow the tension in you neck to melt into the air. 

Allow the tension in your stomach to melt into the air. 

Allow the tension in your legs to melt into the air.

Allow the tension in your mind to melt into the air.

 

The heart is the muscle with the most to do. Be gentle.

The heart bears the burden of your pain. Be gentle.

Love is a decision. Be brave.

Amen.

Ascension

At this moment, I am thinking about "hug my neck" and it's deeper meanings/callback to childhood/(insert psyche term I don't know and am struggling to formulate).

And I am thinking about my Aunt T...who I think was the first I heard say it... though it may have been MaryAnn.

remedy

after nearly a year of all of this, i have finally begun having Covid 19 dreams.

i think they mostly reviled around being somewhere without a mask.

(interesting enough, I think one several nights ago had me in a government building sans mask)

Just now, it was of being in a house full of folk who don't look like me, giving myself... well, attempting to give myself a the vaccine, which I seemed to be doing via a short IV extension instead of directly with hypodermic needle (at a loss for the correct terminology).

No - I think I was inserting a needle, then attaching the dose to that.

Anyway..

I got the needle inserted into my belly area (which may be from my current state of excess insulation), and THEN wondered if I had inserted it into the right place. At that point I decided to ask for assistance and sought out "Mom".

I left the wash/utility room I was in (with needle still inserted) and found a room filled with young persons (again, who don't look like me) and a long banquet-ish table. I was finally directed to "Mom" (younger than me) who gave me the "not my area of expertise" face. She directed me to an older teen boy - tall, large lad with dark, curly, long-ish hair who she characterized as "knowing how to do that". The impression seemed to be that he had some condition that required him to learn to inject himself. 

We began to walk off and that is where I began to wake.

I still have a mental impression of something inserted into longways into my midsection.

So... this is what comes of a day off listening/watching deluded and otherwise people force their way into a government building at the behest of a person with several mental/emotional maladies after malefactors who used stupid and duplicity to get a TAX BREAK decided to put on one last show and it blew up in their collective faces.

The non-natives got very restless yesterday, but not in any way they hadn't already showed us they would.

I guess this is why America needs church and football.

apologies for typos.

" I have killed,

, but I am not a monster.

Monsters are never afraid,

and I'm afraid all the time. "

"People are tribal.

The more settled things are, the bigger the tribes cab be.

The churn comes, and the tribes get small again. "

Amos - THE EXPANSE - s5e6

"why can't they just believe what I say?

why do they only learn from pain?

- philipa georgiou

I know I'm too sedentary and * causing me to harbor anxiety,

because I just had what is a rare, if not unique dream about being in a relatively confined space with a group of 10-or-more strangers without sufficient masking.

And, you know, in the middle of an epidemic.

 

 

 

 

*( it's/that's - Ed. 7/30/21)