Buggin' Out

 it took about 35 years of listening for me to notice that Phife, on each verse, is alternating between two definitions of "bugging out",

 

 and that his second verse (#3 of the song) is rumination on mental health.

 

 i miss Phife. i miss Dave. i miss my cousins.

 

 happy Mental Health Awareness Month.

 

 

 

I miss taking the ferry,

including the various ways one can take a ferry.

when I lived in That Place, 

people used to offer 

"having to take a boat"

as a disadvantage.

There were times when I would 

have 

liked

to live closer to those I typically communed with,

but the ferry was its own kind of communality.

(I wonder why they never thought to put a grocery store in the terminal...)

Ferry is truth.

{just get there early enough to avoid the drunk boat}

mousse

I have been thinking about mice getting into the house.

So, yesterday, i dreamed a dream about mice getting into the house 

the end. 

" I guess I feel anxious in the sense that I don’t have too much going for me anymore.

I used to be kind of cute. In fact, I was pretty for a little too long, you know? It was a curse because it meant that I hadn’t developed as fully as I should have. My best friend from college was in the same position and we helped each other become serious. "

 

- "Both Sides Now: In Conversation With Lorraine O’Grady" , NY Times

 

note to self from the past:

 party shots indoors low ceiling: 500 IS0, on camera flash with a diffuser attached seems to work well for working hand-held.