" I guess I feel anxious in the sense that I don’t have too much going for me anymore.

I used to be kind of cute. In fact, I was pretty for a little too long, you know? It was a curse because it meant that I hadn’t developed as fully as I should have. My best friend from college was in the same position and we helped each other become serious. "

 

- "Both Sides Now: In Conversation With Lorraine O’Grady" , NY Times

 

note to self from the past:

 party shots indoors low ceiling: 500 IS0, on camera flash with a diffuser attached seems to work well for working hand-held.

 

  

(sigh)

Please.

Come get your cats.

Peace:
cW

brittle

I am constantly getting scrapes on my shins now. I have no idea when they happen. I'm starting to think the skin is so dry/stiff there now that they just randomly open up if I move too much. 

I drink water, fair amount of green tea.

(shrug)

(for the previous)

....or maybe it's just Spring. 

elevation

I'm unsure why, but I feel slightly high/giddy (?) today.

Some sensation or...palpable metaphorical (warmth?) from under my sternum...

I don't know why. 

Lastnight spoke to Brother-in-arts...he seemed to approve part of my decision to (try to) reach out to elders I haven't seen in

decades...despite having been back close to them for decades. 

maybe part of a broader relaxation.  /decision

I think I also felt this somethingish yesterday after some exercise.. in the sun.....

some feeling of doing the right thing/making the right choice

after dwelling on the personal determination that so many 

(all?)

have been bad since - 

<hm.>

since I've been allowed to make decisions ? 

 

decades are a blink.  i think i feel like we should get more time. ___

[in

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aooooouuuuuuuuuuut....]