I've been mean for a while but it seems to have gotten worse in the last few years.
I've been being even meaner this week.
which is hard because I've held it in and gone an a depression anger cycle.
which I thought I was off of.
and I guess I am.
because now I'm back to being my regular mean.
i'm tired of being mean. i would like not to be. at least not when not useful.
(sigh)
i probably need a puppy.
(but i'm afraid i'd be mean to - )
(sigh)
{inside tear}
