I just took a bite of a slice of fresh cucumber with some Tony Chachere's on it and had just the slightest impulse to moonwalk.

Just a little bit.

"The opposite of faith

isn't doubt, it's certainty. "

- Friar Tony Doherty

A word that I didn't know was a word, but likely would have compounded at some point:

magniloquent

#ThanksWEB

I scream

Until a few moments ago, I'd not realized that "creamsicle" is a portmanteau of "ice cream" and "popsicle", as that product is a combination of the same.

Sugar is still the devil.

aspiration

i just learned/remembered that i have reached the point in life where I can no longer wake up/eat/immediately lay back down again.

Thanks, weak esophageal sphincter! 

Cats hate fireworks

and I think I agree. 

'like sifting sand through a screen,

we sift people. If you had not been able to control your impulses, like an animal, we could not let you live. You inherit too much power.'

(Dune)

Traveling to mars

(Placeholder)

"In captivity...

...one must keep one's mind active, but not too active."

(pantheon202)

bite

I recently had a dental cleaning. A month prior to that I had an exam over a concern for gum recession. I have a lingering concern about a capped tooth that doesn't fit correctly by my judgement.

It took me a while to get the appointment because:

I currently use the insurance of the un-riche.

I prefer to go to private offices rather than "community health centers" (which, though they sound public, aren't).

Some anxiety over wanting to go to a different provider than the one who did the cap...

And likely other things.

Last overnight, I dreamed I spontaneously lost (at least) four teeth (and gum tissue).

I wonder at the connection...but I am not convinced there directly is one...or what my self is trying to use previous angst to tell me about ongoing anxiety.

And now I am wondering about the similarity of those two "a" words.

https://youtu.be/FqnYuKAgkUM?feature=shared

sufferage

I feel like chapter 25 of  DuBois' "The Silver Fleece" explains a lot.

Closed circuit

i just tried to play a series of brain exercise games.

And i noticed difficulty following fast moving objects or tracking more than one.

And i noticed i was holding my breath when I couldn't  track or understand the game

And my anxiety increased when i heard the "wrong answer" sound

And trying to breathe more deeply/with more intention didn't help

And several wrongs in a row caused a feeling in my ...solar plexus?

A not-good(?) tingling (?)

it's hard to deal with conflict

and it's hard to deal with duplicity 

And it's hard to deal with failure 

with losing

and there's a feeling like nausea 

except for the soul

                   the self

I'm going to lose 

I'm going to lose

                              it.

it hurts. 

I'm hurt

I was hurt

I'm  tired

I want to go home

I have no home

I have to shut my eyes 

I covered my eyes 

I had to stop

I had to put it down

I had to stop

I put it down...and closed my eyes...and my breath came back to me.

I just sighed. 

I am going to play something different now.

:-|

Please. Leave me alone.

Please,

leave me alone.

Please:

leave me alone.

Please -

leave me alone.

Please;

leave me alone.

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I have reached the point in my life where James Earl Jones and Frankie Beverly are no longer here...

And I don't know what to do with that.

Listen to: Summer camp capitalism

Listen to: Summer camp capitalism - https://one.npr.org/i/1197961641:1258418814 

 hqppy birthday, gwen.

froidian

I am taking an indefinite leave from my position as an amateur therapist/counselor.

I will also not be writing any recommendation, letter or otherwise.

shut - Tate

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=R6LOt-YPnpk

Poet ai

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