Friday, July 02, 2021

unwilling archivist

 I would really like to not..


Though I completely understand why I am going to, and can very calmly and objectively talk about that fact that I and my peers have reached that point where we are going to,

assuming our continued presence,


but I really, really would like to stop getting 


more


new


funeral programs.

Friday, June 25, 2021

 

"You think I'd let you starve to death?

 

 When I cut off my own arm to feed you, 


then you will know you're my child."


mama.

The Boy Who Harnessed the Wind

Tuesday, June 08, 2021

but black & white

 an art/exhibit using nothing colored black or white.


came from thinking of wearing red black green..the replacement of gold/yellow/brown for black


and subsequent (need for?) removal of white



"The Dig"....'we search the past for the future...to see where we come from.

Monday, May 31, 2021

"People look at us and see the poor and the mad, but they're looking at us through the bars of their cages.

There's a palace in your head, boy. Learn to live in it always. "

Grant Morrison - THE INVISIBLES

Wednesday, May 19, 2021

dream

Dreamt my baby aunt G was alaive and young and had braids and we cuddled as we compared/competed over hair length and she showed pics she'd taken of my sister inngold braids and I said "everytime I see her I see Regina King" -

and a maroon 57 Chevy sped in and wheel-spun side-ways over a column on it's side to parallel park -

and checking G's artwork thst was looking on the wall to see if it's ok and " is it cool ? ", and me " this is worth hundred$ to a thou$and " and scoffing laughter -

and following them out and " respect a _l_ck woman's work " and gun pulled and stop -

and - 

and -

leave.

everyone leave.

Sunday, May 02, 2021

(sigh)

 i am just putting this here to remind me that I heard someone say "general anxiety" today and am wondering if I qualify.


currently trying to fend off another tension headache (bad morning posture)


haven't been able to turn of various perspectives going on in my head long enough to figure out if giving someone an answer on their time to a question I didn't even realize that I'd been asked was the best decision. 

(headache increasing)

 

i have reached that part of the future where I'm tired of the past rather than wishing for it.

 

tired. tired. tired.

 

 

do not, under any circumstances, fall for sugar and salt and fat.

Sunday, April 25, 2021

downtown tyler tx

of few times I have been through Tyler, TX and what I heard of it, I'd never quite expected to see this type of art there.


although I imagine it is intended somehow as a response to the former activities of the former train/cotton deport to which these are adjacent.


click for larger. worth it.









 

 

Tuesday, April 20, 2021

Some short time ago, Derrick Chauvin was found guilty on 3 counts for the murder of George Floyd.

 

Though noone has, I know that there is someone somewhere in the world who would ask if this makes me happy.

 

I am not George Floyd's family.

 

I am not one of his friends that was left behind by his death.

 

I didn't know him personally.

 

This verdict does not change the factuality of his death. 

 

I cannot take joy in the circumstance of death.

 

I am not in the place to be able to take joy in conviction of the enactor of George Floyd's death - that is for those felt the shock of his loss, who feel the pain of his absence, those to whom he belonged and belongs.


I...


I will be glad for something that will take decades to see...actual change in this society from one based in actual human dignity rather than human material value.


I am...glad...

..that the people of Minneapolis and Houston and (wherever) were not given reason to protest their pain tonight.

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