Having been in my current ill mood about career and personal life,
set partly on by a question from a compatriot
and otherwise by the sound of a conductor's regionalism
(which I think started as appreciation for it before turning to a recent regretted performance),
I stepped off the train, in no rush.
Seeing a shut-down escalator up, I passed by an available stairway up heading toward a working escalator. I looked forward and began to scan for that same conductor leaning out of his window watching for boarding riders. I saw him, and had a thought that he might see me sashaying past the stairway and knowing that seemingly perfectly able-bodied person was forgoing it for the ease of the escalator, and even taking his time in doing that. I then thought about how much I wasn't bothered if he thought that, and was tickled by the thought of my casualness.
As I passed by him, he spoke and I paused and removed the headphones playing Crossings to understand him.
"Keep your head up, brother, it'll get better."
I assured him I was fine and moved on.
It is interesting that he took a moment of lift from depression as depression.
It is interesting that my melancholy may be so pervasive that it has colored even my light times with dourness.