and I'll go about it in His."
from this.
Thursday, April 04, 2013
Roger Ebert: 1942 -2013
"We were getting ready to go home today for hospice care, when he looked at us, smiled, and passed away."
....
His final blog, here.
....
His final blog, here.
Wednesday, April 03, 2013
Communion
I've thought about therapeutic things in the past few months, both in terms of giving and receiving.
I've thought about needing mental therapy and my (completely unschooled or licensed) ability to give it.
I've thought about meditation. I've participated in it a few times. On rare occasion I've tried it by myself. I think I've only managed to achieve what I would think of as a meditative state accidentally.
(which is prolly how it works).
I have recently noticed that I respond strongly to music that puts me in a meditative state....though this isn't music I listen to for that purpose. I listen to it because I like it, it helps me focus.
But, recently, I'm really noticing how strongly I react - how much of a change takes place with meditative music.
It's like:
"oh, that's ----- OH, that's!
Ohhhhhhhhh - > mmmmmmm.
Yeah."
So, I think this is my self showing me what I need.
Recognition of purpose, notwithstanding:
I've thought about needing mental therapy and my (completely unschooled or licensed) ability to give it.
I've thought about meditation. I've participated in it a few times. On rare occasion I've tried it by myself. I think I've only managed to achieve what I would think of as a meditative state accidentally.
(which is prolly how it works).
I have recently noticed that I respond strongly to music that puts me in a meditative state....though this isn't music I listen to for that purpose. I listen to it because I like it, it helps me focus.
But, recently, I'm really noticing how strongly I react - how much of a change takes place with meditative music.
It's like:
"oh, that's ----- OH, that's!
Ohhhhhhhhh - > mmmmmmm.
Yeah."
So, I think this is my self showing me what I need.
Recognition of purpose, notwithstanding:
Tuesday, April 02, 2013
there is suddenly
so much happening right now.
Today I heard a song that caused me to feel so much I was left speechless. I still feel different for having heard it. Some 12/13 hours later I have yet to listen to it or any other music....perhaps out of subconcious fear of being pulled out of somewhere I need to be, or a new place that I just want to be in.
Thursday, I reached out to someone. Saturday I heard the voice of someone I've thought about nigh daily for 12 years for the first time in ... I can't even quite figure it now, but close to the same amount of time. The sound was jarring. Expecting something down-to-earth, soft yet pragmatic. I heard something matter-of-fact and urgent, immediate, pragmatism born of experience, indignant, hardened, hurt - a lot like what I've heard many times up here and thought "this is what this strange life does to you -- thiis is why I can't have a life from anyone raised in this... too hard, too much pain to beat up against,".
Friday, I thought there was an inconvenient truth. Today, I understand that what needs to be is not scheduled according to my timeline.
Sunday, I related to someone's pain. A little while ago I remembered that I once asked God to "make me a healer".
Monday I asked a leading question....and today the respondent had already made it to the next step .
A few weeks ago, I said something that I had to say to move on. And today I am here.
...
so, much is happening.
apparently, it really is spring.
Today I heard a song that caused me to feel so much I was left speechless. I still feel different for having heard it. Some 12/13 hours later I have yet to listen to it or any other music....perhaps out of subconcious fear of being pulled out of somewhere I need to be, or a new place that I just want to be in.
Thursday, I reached out to someone. Saturday I heard the voice of someone I've thought about nigh daily for 12 years for the first time in ... I can't even quite figure it now, but close to the same amount of time. The sound was jarring. Expecting something down-to-earth, soft yet pragmatic. I heard something matter-of-fact and urgent, immediate, pragmatism born of experience, indignant, hardened, hurt - a lot like what I've heard many times up here and thought "this is what this strange life does to you -- thiis is why I can't have a life from anyone raised in this... too hard, too much pain to beat up against,".
Friday, I thought there was an inconvenient truth. Today, I understand that what needs to be is not scheduled according to my timeline.
Sunday, I related to someone's pain. A little while ago I remembered that I once asked God to "make me a healer".
Monday I asked a leading question....and today the respondent had already made it to the next step .
A few weeks ago, I said something that I had to say to move on. And today I am here.
...
so, much is happening.
apparently, it really is spring.
Sunday, March 31, 2013
Saturday, March 30, 2013
Friday, March 29, 2013
After two weeks of reading
on an e-Ink-based device, I can say that I prefer it to a book, unless said book is bound in a way that all pages are flat when the book is open.
That typical page curve does weird things to my brain.
Now, if only I could get a 7 inch reader that's digital ink and just a hair more square...
That typical page curve does weird things to my brain.
Now, if only I could get a 7 inch reader that's digital ink and just a hair more square...
Makebelieve Madness
I just had a dream where I think I was reliving the glory of my alma mater playing my grad school in basketball....except I was playing FOR my alma mater....and it seemed we were playing on a much-upgraded version of the only place I played organized basketball: my junior high school gym.
Thursday, March 28, 2013
Wednesday, March 27, 2013
Fila Brazilia - AZed (Coldcut touch-up)
A downtembient classic. One of my favorites, always eliciting the nodded head.
glisten.
Monday, March 25, 2013
Saturday, March 23, 2013
Krishna, from chapter 12
"Who hateth nought Of all which lives, living himself benign, Compassionate, from arrogance exempt, Exempt from love of self, unchangeable By good or ill; patient, contented, firm In faith, mastering himself, true to his word, Seeking Me, heart and soul; vowed unto Me,— That man I love! Who troubleth not his kind, And is not troubled by them; clear of wrath, Living too high for gladness, grief, or fear, That man I love! Who, dwelling quiet-eyed,[FN#25] Stainless, serene, well-balanced, unperplexed, Working with Me, yet from all works detached, That man I love! Who, fixed in faith on Me, Dotes upon none, scorns none; rejoices not, And grieves not, letting good or evil hap Light when it will, and when it will depart, That man I love! Who, unto friend and foe Keeping an equal heart, with equal mind Bears shame and glory; with an equal peace Takes heat and cold, pleasure and pain; abides Quit of desires, hears praise or calumny In passionless restraint, unmoved by each; Linked by no ties to earth, steadfast in Me, That man I love! But most of all I love Those happy ones to whom 'tis life to live In single fervid faith and love unseeing, Drinking the blessed Amrit of my Being!:
{Anonymous (2011-03-24). The Song celestial; or, Bhagabad-gîtâ (from the Mahâbhârata) being a discourse between Arjuna, prince of India, and the Supreme Being under the form of Krishna (Kindle Locations 788-799). . Kindle Edition}
(I currently have no idea what "FN#25" indicates. I always thought it was mis-or-uninterpretated code)
{Anonymous (2011-03-24). The Song celestial; or, Bhagabad-gîtâ (from the Mahâbhârata) being a discourse between Arjuna, prince of India, and the Supreme Being under the form of Krishna (Kindle Locations 788-799). . Kindle Edition}
(I currently have no idea what "FN#25" indicates. I always thought it was mis-or-uninterpretated code)
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