Portland non liberal past

https://www.bbc.com/news/world-us-canada-53996159

diffidence -

Modesty or shyness resulting from a lack of confidence.

I posit that there is a point at which a (_ _ _) wants to be heard and understood rather than humores, regardless of affection involved.

In 'Animal Joy,' Nuar Alsadir explores the nature of laughter  https://www.npr.org/2022/08/16/1116711441/animal-joy-poetry-nuar-alsadir

Watch "I Got Some Help I Don't Need (Single Edit)" on YouTube

https://youtu.be/NooJiT3vE9o 

Gordita de huevos...

 ...is, simply put, The Truth.

hb2m

Optical Substance - Adaptation

"Ken Boothe - Satisfaction"

Move.

Fresh Moods - Orfine No. 6 (Album 2016)

 

the Truth can hurt

when it is a treatment for a cancerous lie,

that has been eating away at your soul for a lifetime,

and you didn't know

THAT was the source 

of your pain all along.

the Truth is a healer.

(creatorcontroller)makemeahealer

{butbecarefulwhatIaskfor}

Lenny Williams - Cause I Love You (Live)

" The misperception of communication on this planet is that it has taken place."

The Man Who Fell to Earth  ep103

"Feelings are too big for words."

The Umbrella Academy season 3 ep 10

Kottamonga - Quant

 

"Make a home for yourself in others,

and you will find joy more than sadness."

 

The Pitt team didn't think the primary motor cortex would control the adrenal medulla at all. But there are a whole lot of neurons there that do. And when you look at where those neurons are located, most are in the axial muscle part of that cortex.

“Something about axial control has an impact on stress responses,” Strick reasons. 

 

Why One Neuroscientist Started Blasting His Core

An anatomical understanding of how movement controls the body’s stress response system

 

Leyes

Introvert - SVMMsR SVN vol. 2

Bop - Blurred Memories (feat. Synkro)

"The ghosts know who they can frighten."

Watch "Natural hair struggles? Not anymore for these young girls | Nancy's Workshop" on YouTube

"It's better to cry. There's more room outside than in."

https://youtu.be/V73gnxcyzIQ 

'there are more trees on the surface of our planet than stars in the galaxy (4 trillion?)'

"NOVA: Can We Cool the Planet?"

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RhOF3ZE0498
--

Peace:
cW

meme

I am sitting here reading, for the first time in almost-if-not 20 years what was, I think, the first play* I did completely outside of school (or through school affiliation).

I am reading it because I have assigned part of it for a class.

It's odd to feel the much nostalgia for something that didnt happen when I was a child...20-year-nostlagia.

Hm.

Call Super - SE [Houndstooth]

Tony

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MAXcqOZm_wI 

Snarky Puppy feat. Salif Keïta, Carlos Malta, & Bernardo Aguiar - "Soro" (Family Dinner Volume Two)

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gCCnGtJdj28 

Islands In The Rain

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YZAgb7RYvNE 

Joe Sample-Fly With the Wings of Love

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Z_wFNceE27M 

"Exhilaration enhances the absorption of knowledge."

Spock from a memoir of his time in Starfleet Academy.

Mehliana - You Can't Go Back Now

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ksCmBG1nPkU 

Big Titty Monster

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zXfG9ERFzHE 

Erm...

Sing to the Moon - Snarky Puppy

the horns...

 i need a %@#$%@# hug.

Leeches · Osvaldo

 

Rosin + Reed (Zion Train Mix) - Suns of Arqa

https://youtu.be/LtMx1puLugE 

Michael Jackson - The Lady In My life (Complete Version) [HIGHEST QUALITY]

For when you never realized that you'd never heard the *complete* song.

Vikter Duplaix - Manhood

Devonwho - Trade Winds

new love

 According to Uta Hagen in Respect for Acting, 

 

"amateur" 

in its original meaning, 

doesn't mean 'novice'.

it's means 'a lover'....as in a lover of something or someone who pursues something for love.

hm. 

amateur.

Devonwho - Strangebrew (DJAO Remix)

Show Me Your Soul - SoundCloud

Listen to Show Me Your Soul by RobertGlasper on #SoundCloud
https://soundcloud.app.goo.gl/Quqtz 

Leon Inc. - Microfibre (feat. JR827

Nitemoves - Mikuni

am I allowed to write a book with music cues?

 I think I'm allowed to write a book with music cues.

If I ever write (another?) thesis, it's going to have music cues.

at least, the book version of it will.

Why you want to supercharge your brain

Listen to: Why you want to supercharge your brain - https://one.npr.org/i/1069837704:1069837705 

(Every blow the brain has an effect)

Retired general warns the military could lead a coup after the 2024 election

I thought you might want to see this story from NPR .

Retired general warns the military could lead a coup after the 2024 election 

https://www.npr.org/2021/12/31/1068930675/us-election-coup-january-6-military-constitution

Sent from NPR One. Download now: https://read.nprone.app/download 

"Complicate ya" - Otis McDonald

the trap of the other.

https://nymag.com/intelligencer/2021/11/rittenhouse-jury-verdict-self-defense-legal-analysis.html 

"..what is grief if not love persevering?"

The Vision - Wandavision ep 8

"The act of telling a story changes the tale."

The Body Keeps the Score - Bessel Van Der Kolk

Someone, please, cut this dog's nails...

...so I can cuddle her.

She is eager,

but she is sharp.

Neil Young - Only Love Can Break Your Heart

https://youtu.be/364qY0Oz-xs

A film centered on or near to an Afro father and euro son.

(Figuratively, etc)

"your hair looks like a merkin from a giant"

phrasing.

I think I'm going to start a blog thet consists of just phrases I think are excellent ir excellently crafted.

First up: "irregular pubic borders"

(MAPLEWORTH MURDERS SEASON 1 EP 9)

1992 NYC Police Riot

As long as I lived there, I never heard about this.

 

One wonders how many of them were from SI.

 

https://nymag.com/intelligencer/2021/10/the-forgotten-city-hall-riot.html?utm_source=pocket-newtab

Lusine - Eyes Give In

Moon Boots - "Fortune Teller" feat. Kona

Beardyman - Mountain Side

 

Elusive - Safety Pin

Click here to listen to this on Youtube music.

as soon as I find another option, I"ll update post.

:P

"your reaction will lift you clear out of the region of such material matters as appetite."

Marilla - Anne with an E

Michaela Coel: 73rd Emmys

"Talent is a pursued interest.

In other words, anything you're willing to practice, you can do."

- Bob Ross

Rituals of Mine - To show you violence

https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=NXmyq7QbOnY&feature=youtu.be

Sweet Tooth dream

 I've been watching the series on netflix, and reading the comic series. I was reading it just before going to sleep, so I guess that had some influence on the dream.

 There's not much detail - I was in a that looked like the larger half of a sweet in the quadrangle at the University of Houston. I was there with three other people, and we appeared to be doing audio work or audio engineering. One person was, I guess, our boss. Her father showed up, who seem to want to take over or boss us around what were you doing. That didn't sit well with the other two people, and they seem to know that this was going to happen when he got there. When he got there and started doing just that, I said 'no, I'm leaving'. This upset the boss personal, and my response was to say 'okay if you want me to stay I'll stay'. That's where dream ended.

  The young boss lady appeared to be the character Bear from Sweet Tooth. 

  I've got no ideas as to potential meaning.  I did recently stay with someone who was acting in a supervisory position, and their father passed through one weekend. However, that doesn't really feel connected.

 

 

 

New Mexico, You're Next

 ...as soon as I figure out how we can get around Texas.

Native Tribes Face Funding Cuts Over The Treatment Of Descendants Of Former Slaves

Listen to: Native Tribes Face Funding Cuts Over The Treatment Of Descendants Of Former Slaves - https://one.npr.org/i/1031193110:1031193111

--
Peace:
cW

James Blake - Buzzard and Kestre

A new way to solve quadratic equations

 https://www.poshenloh.com/quadratic/

 

 

Freddie Scott "(You) Got What I Need"

Teen Daze - Wandering Through Kunsthal (Official Audio)

Radiolab: The Vanishing of Harry Pace: Episode 1

Melinda Ligeti · How Could I Ask For More

Melinda Ligeti · How Could I Ask For More - Melinda Ligeti

unwilling archivist

 I would really like to not..

Though I completely understand why I am going to, and can very calmly and objectively talk about that fact that I and my peers have reached that point where we are going to,

assuming our continued presence,

but I really, really would like to stop getting 

more

new

funeral programs.

 

"You think I'd let you starve to death?

 

 When I cut off my own arm to feed you, 

then you will know you're my child."

mama.

The Boy Who Harnessed the Wind

Even Though - Giraffage feat. Xxyyxx

 

Radiolab: Breath feat. the greatest freestyle of all time

https://www.stitcher.com/episode/84659856 

bullitnuts - savoir faire

Electric Guest - Bait (Shlohmo remix

 

Monsoonsiren - Maso (Prod. Laplace)

 

but black & white

 an art/exhibit using nothing colored black or white.

came from thinking of wearing red black green..the replacement of gold/yellow/brown for black

and subsequent (need for?) removal of white

"The Dig"....'we search the past for the future...to see where we come from.

Rival Consoles - Recovery (Vessels Remix)

"People look at us and see the poor and the mad, but they're looking at us through the bars of their cages.

There's a palace in your head, boy. Learn to live in it always. "

Grant Morrison - THE INVISIBLES

dream

Dreamt my baby aunt G was alaive and young and had braids and we cuddled as we compared/competed over hair length and she showed pics she'd taken of my sister inngold braids and I said "everytime I see her I see Regina King" -

and a maroon 57 Chevy sped in and wheel-spun side-ways over a column on it's side to parallel park -

and checking G's artwork thst was looking on the wall to see if it's ok and " is it cool ? ", and me " this is worth hundred$ to a thou$and " and scoffing laughter -

and following them out and " respect a _l_ck woman's work " and gun pulled and stop -

and - 

and -

leave.

everyone leave.

(sigh)

 i am just putting this here to remind me that I heard someone say "general anxiety" today and am wondering if I qualify.

currently trying to fend off another tension headache (bad morning posture)

haven't been able to turn of various perspectives going on in my head long enough to figure out if giving someone an answer on their time to a question I didn't even realize that I'd been asked was the best decision. 

(headache increasing)

 

i have reached that part of the future where I'm tired of the past rather than wishing for it.

 

tired. tired. tired.

 

 

do not, under any circumstances, fall for sugar and salt and fat.

downtown tyler tx

of few times I have been through Tyler, TX and what I heard of it, I'd never quite expected to see this type of art there.

although I imagine it is intended somehow as a response to the former activities of the former train/cotton deport to which these are adjacent.

click for larger. worth it.

 

 

Listen to: A Utopia For Black Capitalism

Listen to: A Utopia For Black Capitalism - https://one.npr.org/i/989108031:989360308 

Some short time ago, Derrick Chauvin was found guilty on 3 counts for the murder of George Floyd.

 

Though noone has, I know that there is someone somewhere in the world who would ask if this makes me happy.

 

I am not George Floyd's family.

 

I am not one of his friends that was left behind by his death.

 

I didn't know him personally.

 

This verdict does not change the factuality of his death. 

 

I cannot take joy in the circumstance of death.

 

I am not in the place to be able to take joy in conviction of the enactor of George Floyd's death - that is for those felt the shock of his loss, who feel the pain of his absence, those to whom he belonged and belongs.

I...

I will be glad for something that will take decades to see...actual change in this society from one based in actual human dignity rather than human material value.

I am...glad...

..that the people of Minneapolis and Houston and (wherever) were not given reason to protest their pain tonight.

art in the time of dissonance

https://walkerart.org/magazine/whitewalling-protest-art-race-aruna-d-souza

Louis Futon - Shoulda Known (Ganz Remix)

Shlomo - The End

Elusive - Light Beams

Mux Mool - SFW Porn

above - blessed

Cartilage hydrogel

https://newatlas.com/medical/hyaluronic-acid-hydrogel-reinforce-regrow-cartilage/?itm_source=ocelot&itm_medium=recirculation&itm_campaign=ocelot_e079a01&itm_content=recommendation_2

(sigh) II.

i need an ear.

an objective ear.

a silent, objective ear.

and i need a unsparing voice to fill it with.

and hours, days, weeks of time and stamina for them both

(the formula for stamina certainly includes a time variable, yes?)

i need a seductive, hypnotic, coercive, convincive, safe ear

that can pull out all of the truth that i will and won't say that keeps beating against what feels like my diaphragm with what feels like wooden gorge

so i can feel like the it's right

because it's all right

and not just the part my voice allows me to remember. 

(sigh)

n/m

Dear Normal Human,

   Sometimes, I wish you coukd understand what it's look to seen as unfeeling because you can stand back and objectify often, but also feel like you feel EVERYTHING.

Bonus: also what it feels like to be functionally invisible and relentlessly conspicuous.

(somewhere some character in of the movies of Your Life is telling you to stop giving what they want and let them know they see you when They act like they don't 'MAMA I DID IT ALL BECAUSE OF YOU')