So, I thought wrote something about grace, needing to move, a chance and getting it.
I may have put it elsewhere... I will look for it later.
For now,
I will say that tonight I went back to a place that I had hoped would be something new for me.
And it turned very painful.
And I have been reluctant to go back there due to reminders of that pain...
But I have gone back on a couple of occasions and it's been ok.
So I went back tonight.
And one of those reminders showed up.
YES, it was a person. Someone it didn't even occur to me that I would come across.
And it took me a second to recognize them. And I could see that they were recognizing me.
At the end of the event. This person came up and asked if I remembered them. I said yes.
They asked if I was "coming back".
Which I found interesting.
(I was a teacher. And this person did not do well in my class.)
And there were a few people like that, and I always wonder what coming across them again will be like.
And how genuine there cordiality is.
But the person asked. I believe I responded "I don't think so".
They then invited me to come back to another event on campus in a couple days.
And there was another student who recognized me before that who greeted me warmly.
(not that I ever had a problem with said person...but I never knew where I stood with a lot of the folk there)
And I left that building that represented so much pain for me feeling lighter.
yes.
Lighter.
and maybe less hurt.
(sigh)
