intensity

(coming out from the dark)

<a light so bright that it blinds through closed eyes>

"All people fear decisive, proud honor."

- Okwu the Meduse from BINTI

I am thinking something about singers and access/connection of the voice to the spirit and how many of the best actors were practiced singing at some point.

Is it that or is it both?

Poetry?

Speaking is communication of thought/idea

Singing is communication of emotion/spirit

communication vs. expression

aliens

easterbeast

I don't know what that is on its back.

objectivity

I don't know how to title this

So, I thought wrote something about grace, needing to move, a chance and getting it.

I may have put it elsewhere... I will look for it later.

For now,


I will say that tonight I went back to a place that I had hoped would be something new for me.

And it turned very painful.


And I have been reluctant to go back there due to reminders of that pain...


But I have gone back on a couple of occasions and it's been ok.


So I went back tonight.



And one of those reminders showed up.

YES, it was a person. Someone it didn't even occur to me that I would come across.

And it took me a second to recognize them. And I could see that they were recognizing me.


At the end of the event. This person came up and asked if I remembered them. I said yes.


They asked if I was "coming back".

Which I found interesting.

(I was a teacher. And this person did not do well in my class.)

And there were a few people like that, and I always wonder what coming across them again will be like.

And how genuine there cordiality is.

But the person asked. I believe I responded "I don't think so".

They then invited me to come back to another event on campus in a couple days.


And there was another student who recognized me before that who greeted me warmly.

(not that I ever had a problem with said person...but I never knew where I stood with a lot of the folk there)

And I left that building that represented so much pain for me feeling lighter.


yes.


Lighter.


and maybe less hurt.


(sigh)

easter.

"Guilt keeps them outside the arc of grace."

Not co-habitating highlights the need of living communally in a community. 

We need each other because we're so damned afraid of each other.

babel

So, is the rule that you should always start by speaking the most common language of where you are, even if you have to eventually resort to what you are actually fluent in?

Or should you try to speak the language of what environment you are in?

Is it a diss to try someone else's language and fail..

Or is it a diss to not want to denigrate a language with a bad attempt?

Get it together.

hael

(aka: that day the sky fell)

"My father is no !onger sure of who I am. He wonders what else he doesn't know."

from the MONSTER.


(sealab)

(2021)


(episode...4?)

I hate the way

when one gets in the area around NYC where more people than not walk and ride instead of drive,

where people walking on the street are strangers first and foremost,

that people go out of their way to look

up

down

askance

askew

too avoid eye contact...

even when there really aren't that many people to pass by.

But I guess they've passed by a few thousand by the time they get to Union City.

Still...

(sigh)