and I'm currently reading Fledgling and listening to ambient music and craving intimacy...
Not intimacy as in sexual or even romantic contact...
Just quietness, nearness and frankness of discussion. Trust.
l
I am currently finding it difficult to believe I have ever wanted to be in a crowd of people..but I know there is this part of me that responds to being in front of a crowd of people. I seek out small groups...maybe not that anymore. I seek out seclusion with individuals.
I wonder if that is the case with men, too? It has been for a while with femalepersons.
Hm. Boys operate in packs, no? Maybe I am still that way.
But there is something about the intimate conversion - not having to compete for attention.
Hm.
I also have a headache. I got caught in the cold and a bit wet last night. I was ok this morning, but I hope that I've not exposed myself to the superflu that is currently yesterday's news.
Another child went into a building full of other children and killed several of them today.
(sigh)
Not intimacy as in sexual or even romantic contact...
Just quietness, nearness and frankness of discussion. Trust.
l
I am currently finding it difficult to believe I have ever wanted to be in a crowd of people..but I know there is this part of me that responds to being in front of a crowd of people. I seek out small groups...maybe not that anymore. I seek out seclusion with individuals.
I wonder if that is the case with men, too? It has been for a while with femalepersons.
Hm. Boys operate in packs, no? Maybe I am still that way.
But there is something about the intimate conversion - not having to compete for attention.
Hm.
I also have a headache. I got caught in the cold and a bit wet last night. I was ok this morning, but I hope that I've not exposed myself to the superflu that is currently yesterday's news.
Another child went into a building full of other children and killed several of them today.
(sigh)
